I hear stories of God’s healing power all the time. I’ve experienced it in my own life countless times. So, when something happens and I’m not healed right away, I get frustrated.
On the weekends I drive an airport shuttle. It may sound odd, but I’m really blessed by this job. Well, yesterday at work I slipped on some ice and caught myself on my twisted foot. It was super painful right away but I thought I could just walk it off.
A couple of hours later I was sitting at my desk at the airport and got up to go to the restroom. When I stepped down…excruciating pain. It literally made me nauseous and I teared up instantly. Throughout the day I kept trying to put weight on it…still needing to go to the restroom, but I couldn’t move.
Obviously, I was praying for it all morning but when it didn’t get better I had to call my manager to come get me and drive my shuttle. She even tried to help me to the restroom but I just couldn’t walk that far so she had to get a wheelchair. Talk about humbling.
When I finally got home last night I was going to go to urgent care and was really bummed I would have to spend money on a stupid broken foot. I decided to wait until the morning and see what happened. I thought I’d get up, post a prayer request on my squad page, and head to the doctor.
When I woke up I just started talking to God. In the middle of my talking I asked Him why sometimes people are healed and other times they aren’t. I still don’t get it. I thought, if Jesus went around doing good and healing everyone, and Christians are supposed to do greater things, then why aren’t we healing everyone as well? In the midst of my questions. I just started praising God. I thought, I don’t care if my foot is broken and I won’t be able to work for weeks, God is good and He will work everything out.
But when I stepped out of bed…NO PAIN! Not at all! God has healed my broken foot! I was walking on it all day, bouncing during praise and worship this morning, playing with my nephew…NO PAIN! All I feel is a slight tightness that I’ve been just stretching out all day. I’m completely expecting even that to be gone when I wake up tomorrow.
God is so good! In the middle of my questions He healed me. He wasn’t offended or hurt that I didn’t understand. He didn’t care that I didn’t know the right words to say. I think He just wanted my heart. Still does.
I think that’s all He wants from you too. You could be reading this thinking, that’s good for you, but what about my problems? God can totally take care of those things too!
I still have things that need work, areas I need God to show up in. Hello fundraising deadlines. But those things aren’t my goals. I came to a point this morning where healing wasn’t my goal. Screw healing, screw finances, screw all the things I think I need today. I NEED GOD! Nothing else matters if I don’t have Him.
One of my favorite quotes has also become a sort-of life motto: “My goal is God Himself, not joy nor peace; nor even blessing, but Himself, my God.” – Frederick Brook
I still don’t really know why God chose to heal me this morning instead of yesterday, but I can say that God used that circumstance to make me put a little more trust in Him. To divert a little more energy away from me and onto Him.
“He must increase, but I must decrease.” – John 3:30
What can God accomplish in YOU if you make God your goal?
