More in Awe
It seems strange,
not weird, but different to be entering into the new stage of “this” relationship.
My relationship with God most of my
life has been in the reliance of Him as my “father”. This has been such a real
concrete thing in my life. He has been there to love, direct, guide, and
provide for me. I have experienced His love of truth, healing, and embracement
as a continuous reminder of His involvement.
As I read through the scriptures He
is there explaining with clarity and gentleness the truths of what He wants to
reveal. I can envision Him kneeling beside me working on the process together.
His guidance helped me in areas of, schooling, my job, friendships and growth
in life.
Throughout my later twenties I hear d
about going on “dates” with God. So on occasion I would go to coffee, out to
eat, or to the movies by myself, all the while inviting Him in these times
together. But I would so easily fall back on reliance and comfort of the arms
of Him being my Father. This was deemed necessary and relevant to the stage and
process that I was going through.
Recently in Africa
I had two separate words spoken over me concerning my singleness. They were
amazing words directed from God about His
purpose in my singleness and how this has to do with the anointing He has
on my life and about the ” mighty” man that He has for me. It was freeing and
continued to spur me on toward trust and reliance on Him for my future plans
and how my singleness will be used for His glory and involvement with woman.
One particular word that was spoken
was how God wanted to enter into a new form of relationship with me. He wanted
to become “my” husband during this time of singleness. I know the truth of how
God needs to be my husband in marriage
because my true love, identity and belonging can’t rest on the reliance of my
“earthly” husband. I can only be complete through the Spirit of God. But as a single woman this wasn’t something I
thought I needed to embrace fully at this point in my life. ButI knew now that this was Him asking
for more than the occasional “dates”. I felt complete peace and readiness to
enter into this with Him.
I continued to pray and seek guidance about my
mindset changing. What does it look like and feel like to enter into this stage
with God.
He started that day with showing me
small things and than larger things to ask, seek and rely on Him for. It took a
more intimate turn in my mind. He is showing me how He can become my best
friend, confidant and romancer.
As I was running a couple of days ago
into the dusk and sunset of the night, I began stepping into this new role with
Him. I was reminded of a Beth Moore story and how she asked God to awe her as
she was walking through the woods, and He sent a fawn to run across her path.
So I asked if He would romance me, and show me something in His nature that
would awe me. In the back of my mind
there was the image of hoping to see zebras because we hadn’t seen any as of
yet.
As I am turning around the bend I see
to my left some animals and I quickly and quietly run down the path to get a
closer look.
Right in front of me was a beautiful
pond, with 4 giraffes (my favorite animal) on my left, and across the other
side of the pond were six zebras and about fifteen impalas! It was the most
amazing sight I have ever seen!!! Not
only did the scenery take my breath away but the amazing fact that I was being
romanced allowed me to become more in awe of my relationship with the Lord. He gave me more than I asked for!
It has been exciting, this new stage
that I am in! It’s different, amazing,
and eye opening. It is just in the beginning phase but I know full well and
have tremendous joy and peace where I am right now. I am looking forward with
excitement that I get to spend this time in His intimate presence being wooed,
romanced, and loved. It’s a new adventure!
