….by sight
The thought pierced through me as my conversation with Karen brought up past ideas of what I had wanted the Lord to do during these months; it struck me how much I have wanted to walk into more power of the Lord, and even blogged about it, but how easily I seemed to lose it’s daily impact in my life. As the conversation ended, I still felt quite puzzled that as I started out this mission, I was exercising and believing in the power of healing, but throughout Cambodia I lost the sense of integrating it in my daily experiences.
Throughout the next days this thought would not leave which led to a heart felt conversation with Pam. We left the bench on the ferry with hearts of awareness, heaviness, and complete praise and surrender, both of us holding the burden to walk boldly and obediently toward a life seeking to be used for prayer that heals. We asked the Lord to bring pastors, circumstances and people that would demonstrate and invite us into an atmosphere of utilizing the Lord’s healing power.
With this awareness overshadowing my thoughts and daily insights, I walked into our new ministries with a refreshing empowerment. Our first ministry at Pastora Norma’s church on the sea led to my day surrounded in the prayer house with women. After a corporate time of prayer over the women, I sat on the wicker bench continuing to enjoy the time and drinking my fresh coconut juice. With a timid spirit, one of the women, Sol Maranon, came up to me and asked that I pray for healing of her mouth. Without asking much detail, it was evident that she had an inflamed jaw line and a face that demonstrated pain. Without hesitation, I lifted her up.
I sat that evening debriefing my day with Molly with disappointment. I felt as if the prayer was just simple in its asking and simple in power. A huge feeling of His power working through me did not accompany this time nor an immediate display of healing. The words of Molly rang truth through the cloudiness of discouragement…you were obedient; He uses what we give….
As we visited the church on the sea a couple of days later, Sol Maranon came up to me with Pastora Norma. With complete surprise they began to share how she was healed! Her jaw and demeanor showed complete truth of God’s miraculous touch. Through translation her story unfolded with how she was in despair and was giving up on any relief of the inflammation and torture of pain. With medicines only providing temporary relief, the explanation of how the Lord instructed her that day in the prayer house to ask me to pray for healing, followed through smiles.
Pastor Raul,Pastora Norma and Sol Maranon with her daughter
My face and emotions showed awestruck and surrealness of being used for a miracle. We immediately joined together in praises for His love and faithfulness in healing a daughter in pain.
As I shared individually with each team mate, I was walking in amazement. I asked for opportunities and people to pray for, and to walk into and practice this gift of healing and the Lord handed it to ME! Praises be to the Lord above!
The month of ministry held a new boldness and expectation. He brought many pastors across our path that have seen and walked in the healing miracles. It brought encouragement, boldness, and expectation of seeing God move.
“Live by Faith and not by Sight” continuously rings through my mind. My life is meant to walk in believing what the bible says is TRUE. It may seem strange, out of this world, not of human concepts, but God IS God…I am not. His ways our different from ours…that is why we are to live by believing and not by seeing. The enemy uses lies, deceit and discouragement daily to delude the concept of “anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, because the work of the Son brings glory to the Father. Yes, ask anything in my name, and I will do it!”
He is showing me that all I need is to have faith and walk forward. Sol Maranon was obedient in faith and asked, I prayed, He used me, a healing miracle occurred. It is this simple….
Live by Faith and not by Sight 2nd Corth 5:7
I want to walk in it and see what he can accomplish! I am realizing that there is nothing to fear but fear itself. I want to do greater works!
