Home from the race!!! Now what???
Spiritual warfare!! That’s what!!!!!!!!
The lies in my head are numerous. And I KNOW they are lies but I still let them bother me. I still entertain them and let them play over and over again until they drive me crazy.
I could tell you the specific lies I hear the enemy whisper to me day in and day out but that’s not the point. And I’m not writing this blog to give the enemy a platform. In Asia there is a saying that goes
“Same, Same but Different“
So let’s just say that applies very well to my situation. The same old serpent spitting the same old lies with just a different twist at a different time.
But through it all I have my moments of breakthrough. I have a break through of praise and break through of worship that reminds me just who I am and who I belong to.
Now please don’t read this and think I’m in complete disarray. I’m just using this blog to “process” what’s going on with me. This week my squad will be returning to Georgia for debrief were they will be able to process their time on the race and what’s next to come. And since I won’t be able to attend I will still use this week to take time to do my own processing.
Oh by the way, if you didn’t know,
IM HOME!!!
Lol
The race is over and I am back home.
I know I did a poor job of blogging to keep everyone updated of where I was, so take this blog as my official announcement that yours truly is back in the good ol US of A!
So what’s next for me???
I don’t know exactly. I have a few ideas of what I hope to do. Prayerfully I will be going to Peru and Brazil this summer with my church. I hope to get a job to start paying off some debt. But past that, only the Lord knows.
However, I will say I am grateful for all I have. I have come home with a grateful heart. Even though I feel like I’m in a spiritual struggle right now I can not help but to be thankful for all my blessings. The Lord has allowed me to see the world. He has given me a supportive family and encouraging friends who walked with me through this journey and who are continuing to walk with me. No matter what happens I know I am blessed.
As for how does it feel to be back???
Well the best answer to that is…..
weird.
I feel weird most of the time. Sometimes I feel like nothing has changed. But then sometimes I feel like I am so weird and out of place but no one knows it but me. Sometimes I feel like dancing right up out of my skin!! I can thank my squad and their love for dance parties for that.
Truth is, I just want to be the very weird me and just enjoy this life God has given me and not let anything hold me back.
Well that’s all for now. Processing time is over.
Love you all Jeanette
