Sooooo it seems every time I try to write a blog I for some reason just cant get it done. I don’t really know what to title this blog but I just feel that I need to get some of my thoughts out.
So we are entering the holiday season and my birthday just passed. I turned 30 and for some time I was experiencing some anxiety about turning 30. I must say that now that I have turned 30 I don’t feel any different.
Well anyways, I wish I could explain how ive been feeling lately. Ive been in this weird daze. I really feel like im just going through the motions in life. There are a few things that get me excited, youth ministry and my upcoming journey on the world race, but for the most part I just feel like everyday is another day of me going through the motions.
Ive been feeling such a disconnect with God and I know the disconnect is on my end. Its like ive lost my fire. I know that Jesus is my reason for being and living but the push to be intentional in pursuing my relationship with Him has just not been there. So if you are reading this I just ask for your continued prayers.
As for the World Race, at one point I lost the initial excitement I had regarding the world race. I went through a period of really questioning if this was exactly what God was calling me to do. I would look at my life and the wonderful family, friends and ministry God has blessed me with and I would constantly compare it to the world race. But I finally got to the point were I had to realize that the World Race is not going to be like anything I experience here and its not supposed to be. It an entire different journey with its own lessons and wonderful things to be learned. I know that God will us this season to mold me and shape me into the woman He has called me.
I have so much more on my mind and I hope that this blog has helped me break the silence. I am going to try to be more intentional about blogging my pre-race experience.
Lastly I would like to thank God for His faithfulness. So many people have shown their support with prayers and financial support toward this missions trip. God has truly blown my mind that inspight of myself, He continues to work on my behalf.
Praise God from whom ALL blessing flow!
