I have 15 days until training camp, 66 days until launch, and $6,192 more dollars to fundraise.
wow
Needless to say, what feels like some trip figmented in my imagination is now rushing upon me, while yes I am excited I am more nervous. I am nervous I may not be fully funded by launch, I am nervous that my squad might find me just a little too loud; mostly I am nervous for what is to come.
When people ask me what I will be doing, I say I will be teaching English. This is true. I will be teaching, but I will also be a student learning. I will learn to accept the unknown. I will be forced to learn without and I will learn to deal with my emotions. I will learn that it is okay to cry and okay to jump for joy. I will learn that asking for help doesn’t make you weak, and that relying on people only strengthens relationships.
I will also be a listener. I will hear stories that will break my heart, and I will hear stories of redemption. I will listen to the voices of children forced to grow up too soon. I will listen to stories of victory and miracles. Most importantly I will learn to listen, understand, and begin to write my own story.
As I sit with 16 days separating me and my soon to be family for 9 months, I take time to be still. Im taking time to process, and most of all taking time to understand this whirlwind that is consuming me. Although I am afraid, I am more excited to see what will come, all in good time.
xoxo
-Jazlyn M. Gonzalez
