There are exactly 19 days until I launch. Training camp has passed and has been conquered. Finances are being raised. Shots are being injected. Everything is falling into place, but the more that gets done the more I feel my life moving to chaos.
The time that has spanned post training camp has been really hard for me. I went from living with 52 other people 24/7 to spending a lot of time alone. I went from gaining 52 new friends to having to say goodbye to my old friends. I went from turning around and always having someone to talk to, to sitting in my house among suffocating silence .
I now realize why there is this gap of 6 weeks post training camp. This is the time for hardship. This is the time to say goodbye to friends and family but also time to say goodbye to myself. When I come back from the race I KNOW I will be changed. I’m not sure what this will look like but I know that there will be work done in me. In this six weeks I need to rest. I need to digest the death of myself and I need to reflect on who I have been created to be.
So, before the beautiful happy chaotic storm of the race I am being called to rest. My advice for future racers in this 6 week span is too be still. Don’t fill your days with TV or stress. Be still. Listen to what he is trying to teach you, and prepare your heart for the storm it is about to endure. Prepare yourself for a journey full of supernatural love.
xoxo Jazlyn
