In the last week I haven't read my bible as much as I normally do, nor have
I been spending very much time quiet and alone with God. Normally this is
something that would bother me, but I can't really say it has been a
problem for me. If you read my last blog you know that in the last 10 days
a lot has been happening. In a nut shell, we climbed a mountain, ministered
to mountain dwellers, prophesied over a school that is being built and
spoke life into a mountain church. As much fun as we had and as much time
as we spent in travel alone, it was all about ministry.
I am going to keep it real here, the hike up that mountain sucked in a lot
of ways. When people were throwing up and crying and at the brink of mental
breakdown I had serious questions concerning where God was in those
moments. I found myself in serious displeasure in the Lord during this
brutal hike because of the abuse I was blaming Him for allowing. At the
point that I made the comment out loud in my head that God was punishing
us, He very clearly told me to stop walking, shut up and start paying
attention.
Before I continue, let me put this into perspective. For some reason there
was a significant number of people who thought they were magically going to
turn into Moses and find God at the top of a mountain. At some point in
this brutal hike I had a momentary thought about what if God is putting me
through this hike only to show me greatness at the end to make it all worth
it. Personally I used that as an excuse to pride myself in the success of
the "journey" I was on. As it turns out, that was all BS I built up in my
head to make me feel closer to God in moments of desperation.
There is a phrase from one of my favorite songs that say, "Why did I think
I would only get to know you when times were good?" Back to when God spoke
to me. At first I thought there was more I was supposed to listen for
because He told me to pay attention. WRONG!! The whole first 2 hours I had
been missing out on His incredible creation which is so far from my
character because usually creation is where I find the most joy in the
Lord. As soon as I got over myself and began looking at the kingdom that I
had been placed in, it all made sense. God is not here…He is everywhere!
I stopped looking at the ground being lost in my thoughts and started
looking up at the beautiful creations all around me. God had literally
dropped me in the middle of His most untouched and grandest creation; the
Himalayan mountain jungle. All the BS about something greater at the end of
the hike was ridiculous because I was already in His kingdoms garden! God
is with me in the Nepal jungle mountains, and in Ongole, India and in Katy,
TX. It doesn't matter where I am, because He is always there, all around
me, in everything I see and touch! Even if my mind is not on Him, or I
think I have pushed Him out of a situation…
GOD IS EVERYWHERE!!!
As He leads me,
Jason
