Okay so really these are 5 mini blogs about what the Lord has been showing to me and teaching me in the past month!
Codependency
I have inevitably become co-dependent. Dependent on comfort. Dependent on people. I have recently pointed out in myself a want for codependency, a need for it. To cling to it and people as I always have. I find myself wondering where the roots of codependency lie. Where does the selfish want to always need come from? What can I do to deal with it? And ultimately I am asking myself what codependency on the Lord looks like. I have a need to always be around familiar faces, perfect for community right? Wrong, codependency ruins community. I am figuring out how to live independently of people. I know what you’re thinking “You must be joking right? This is after all the World Race. You’re basically with people 24/7”
In a more recent development God has shown me the importance of alone time. I understand that His voice is most often heard in the silence. I understand that He is the only thing I need to be dependent on.
The excitement of anticipation, really it’s just fancy words for getting your hopes up. Now this isn’t necessarily a bad thing. With the anticipation of a happy event come emotions of joy, happiness, excitement and elation. All emotions we as people love to feel, but when the event or activity doesn’t bring the same emotions as the anticipation then we are left disappointed. We are left feeling unsatisfied, unfulfilled. So how do we make each event give us the fulfillment we seem to require? We can’t. We try to find fulfillment in good works but we cannot, fulfillment doesn’t come from things, or actions. Unless we truly believe that everything we are doing is for the benefit of the kingdom. Unless we are believing that even picking up trash for an hour is the work that the Lord has called us to. “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters” Colossians 3:23 So yeah no matter what you do, do it for God and His glory.
The story of the gospel is simply that jesus died to save us. There is so much more to it. Jesus died so that we could receive God’s grace, He rose to extend God’s glory.
So what does that mean in us?
“All of this is for your benefit. And as God’s grace reaches more and more people, there will be great thanksgiving, and God will receive more and more glory.”
-2 Corinthians 4:15
So there are some short thoughts and lessons I’ve learned here in my time in Albania. I will miss the people here dearly. I am so thankful for the community God has given us here. If you’re still reading this then thank you for reading! Grace and peace be with you!
