Lately I’ve been so busy trying to finish school and preparing for my 6 week mission trip to Spain that my mind has been all over the place. It sounds bad, but I haven’t been focused on the Gap Year as much as I should be like with fundraising and preparing my heart for it. It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s just that I kind of can’t with all that’s been going on in my life.
I’ve been feeling that because Spain and the Gap Year are so close, it’s kinda impossible for me to do both. These trips are both very different and need a lot of physical and mental work put into them. I have been feeling a bit overwhlemed with all that’s been going on and sometimes wish I could just pause time. I haven’t actually processed yet that I’m gradutaing high school, going to Spain for 6 weeks, then on a Gap Year for 9 months.
When things are going on in our life, as busy as we can be, we can accidently get so overwhelmed and busy that we kinda put God to the back of our mind or list of “things to do” and I know I’m guilty of doing this, and hate it. I can feel my soul missing Jesus and wanting more of Him. My soul is thirsty and I can’t allow the things of this earth to consume my time and miss out on Him.
Today God provided me with $387 from donations, and when I saw that my mind was blown. It wasn’t that it’s a big amount of money, but that God never forgets little ole me who messes up and can forget Him sometimes. It’s that even when my mind is not focused on Him, He wants it to be and shows me that He is here, waiting for me with arms wide open!
His love never fails,
never gives up,
never runs out on me.
