I have been praying for that fire inside of me to take a hold on a greater level for sometime. I came to know Christ when I was 15 years old. Before that I had a very limited exposure to Christianity. Churches were just a place you went on holidays to get some good candy. When I came to know Christ that fire inside of me burned so bright. People could look at me and know that I was on fire for Christ. After being through a few failed relationships I see a similar pattern with my relationship with Christ. That fiery passionate love has faded through time. Don’t get me wrong, I love Praising God, and sometimes get called Miley Cyrus in the shower, but the fire of that newly discovered love seamed to beam so much brighter from My heart earlier on.
I have really been focused on praise and worship lately. Letting go of my inhibitions and giving God all My praise. If feels liberating! Probably not for the people around me. Grandpa always said I couldn’t carry a tune in a bucket so my enthusiasm over shadows my talent at times.
Being focused on allowing my worship of God to freely come out of me in whatever form has really transformed me. That fire is burning brighter. So much brighter that I have noticed I have begun to engage many other people around me in conversations about Christ. They have questions for me. This weekend a friend I haven’t seen in four years came into town. He made this statement “I want some of what You have”. I asked what’s that. He said “You have that scary kind of happy. Like none of this stuff around here matters”. I was at a gun show helping a good friend work his island. I used to sell guns and was very passionate and successful. I realized that each purchase and deal, each year long quest for that super rare gun: only to turn around and sell it a week later for a $100 profit, was just me filling an empty void. He saw the change in My heart, That fire that something greater is with me. I told him it was Jesus. He left Sunday for California where he is stationed. We are going to be in email contact and I know that Christ will conquer his heart.
Today I praise God for the Joy He fills my heart with as I fall deeper for him, for the freedom he has given me in my life. He mercy is relentless!
I lift my hands to you in prayer. I thirst for you as parched land thirsts for rain. Interlude (?Psalms? ?143?:?6? NLT)
Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you. (?Psalm? ?63?:?3-5? NIV)
