Me… I’m special… Well God thinks so! There had been many days in My life that I didn’t think that. Everyone has tough times in life but our own challenges always weigh so much more. So back to the point that God thinks I am special. He has allowed me to chase all of My dreams and succeed. This sounds great right? Most things that I wanted to do, I did. Nice big brand new house (Which was the third house I had bought and I was only 28), 1961 Corvette, 1951 Chevy Pick up, 1975 Chevy Corvette, owned every gun I ever desired (LOVE GUNS!), When it came to business, Everything I touched made profit, Basically I excelled at everything I tried. My life had been filled with My choices and My decisions. I would ask God to bless My endeavors, Provide fruit for the things I want in my life.
HE DID!!!
Now some people may say What is the problem… Nice house, nice things, good job, pretty wife, etc… The problem was that I was miserable. I had been called and equipped but I spent so much time pursuing all the things that I desired that I was empty inside. I was just filling the voids in my heart with things. All the things that happened to me, pains, losses, fears, failures- I would just cover them up with things. Of course that all comes crashing down in the middle of the night when you are alone and Your things can’t comfort You. So maybe this isn’t so much about me than who God has made.
God has made me a Servant, Leader, Follower, Sailor, Salesman, Mechanic, and I could go on. I have been a lot of things but I am for Him and His will now, not my own. He has given me peace in My heart and brought over 30 years of self inflicted misery to an end by saying Come home… Follow me this time…
I am for Him…
I am His…
I am for His Kingdom…
