i really just need to vent so please beware and bear with me.
today has NOT been a good day.
i’ve cried a lot.
so i get to work this morning and notice that money that people have been donating to my world race bucket fund has been stolen.
not all.
but most.
this upsets me pretty badly. just because i felt like i’ve been trying so hard to save money and everything and then someone i work with takes it.
obviously they need it more, right?
then i miss the birthday dinner for my sisters because my coworker decided not to come to work on time.
FUN.
haha
i just finished watching the Karate Kid and it was so good. i had a great talk with my step dad.. he really encouraged me with everything i’m going through and reminded me that satan is doing everything he can to STEAL my joy.
so, i’m feeling a lot better at this point.
then family drama starts with the mother.
let me just say that i love my mom. SO SO much. but we just haven’t been having the greatest relationship the past… 5 years or so. ha
i mean it’s not always bad. we have some really awesome times.
our relationship needs a lot of prayer. and the same goes for her and my yonger sisters.
SOOOOO
a few months ago i wrote a blog on here saying i needed some prayer because my mom was being weird about the Race.
not too long after my grandma asked if i would move in with her and my grandpa to help around the house and do yard work, etc.
so praise God for that. seriously it was like a weight lifted.
i no longer had to listen to my mom constantly question me and my motives and how do i know God is really calling me.. yadayada.
i swear one day she’ll seem excited for me
and the next it’s just like it was before.
i just do not know what to do anymore. all i can do is pray.
and satan uses this SO much. because my mom is the one person i feel like i need support from and i’m just not getting it from her.
my step dad is as encouraging as he can be.. but mom just doesn’t get it i guess.
maybe it’s too hard for her to let me go.
only God knows the reasoning for why she acts the way she does.
ughh. i could go on but now you know the gist of it.
Please pray for my mom and i. that God would continue to work in my life and work in my mom’s heart.
AH! sorry to be so negative.
on the bright side i am super excited about camp! i can’t wait to see all of your amazing faces. 🙂
lovelovelove.
