Yes, I’ll admit it. I’ve been doubting a whole lot lately. Going on the World Race seems so surreal to me and honestly I’m scared. A part of me is so excited to go and experience all the great things God has in store but another part of me is afraid. I’m afraid of leaving my comfort zone and being away from my family for so long. I’m afraid of not reaching my financial goal in time. It’s like my heart is there but my mind isn’t. My heart longs to follow God’s calling on my life and respond in obedience but my mind is constantly thinking, $17,000?! There’s no way. You’re not even half way and you leave in a couple of months. What about your car loan? What if something happens to my family while you’re gone? And do you realize that you’ll be living off of a backpack for nearly a year?! What if you get sick?
It’s been difficult not letting my mind get in the way of what God has called me to do. But in the midst of all this, God has been so faithful. He is constantly reminding me that this isn’t about me. It’s not about my emotions or my comfort, it’s all about Him. He reminds me that He is with me and will provide my every need. And just when I’m about to tap out and quit, He renews my strength and gives me hope.
I know this will be a constant struggle. But I have two choices, I can either let fear and doubt consume me or I can trust in an almighty, all knowing, and faithful God. Every single day I am confronted with these choices and honestly I don’t know if tomorrow I’ll chose fear but today I choose God! Today I’m trusting in His word. Today I’m clinging to His spirit!
“Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.” Joshua? ?1:9?
“But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” Philippians? ?4:19
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Janibel
