Try Everything by Shakira from Zootopia. I have been listening to these lyrics on repeat since I first watched the movie last night. Its true how life can get you down, but you get up again and try. Nobody learns without getting it wrong. I wanna try even though I could fail. Wow its so true about my life right now. I have no idea what the World Race (WR) is going to do to my life. I feel like I am going to just mess up when I am doing ministry or living in constant community, but I want to try. I am going to fail at things, but I will learn and then keep going. I have 7 months of life leading up to the WR. I have a lot of changes coming before I even step foot on a flight across the world with 50 other people. A lot of emotions are rolling around inside of me right now.
I want to focus on life here and now and not get swept up in what is going to happen in 2 weeks or 4 weeks or even this weekend. I need to remember to live for today. However, that is hard when you need to get things ready and prepared for a year of your life traveling around the world with all of you belongings in a single backpack. It’s hard when you think about relationships and friendships that you have formed over the last year or 2 or 3 or 20..How do you leave those behind.
You would think that I have a lot of practice with this. I mean I have moved every 6 months to a year my entire life. I was in 25(foster homes) before I was even 18. So that aspect of the race won’t bother me to much. The thing that is the hardest is when you find people that break through all your walls and decide to do life along side of you. I have made friendships and relationships here in Korea, that when the day comes for me to leave, it’s going to break my heart.
I have to try, I have to try living radically for God. I have to try and see what He wants to teach me and show me over the next year. I will be a changed person for it.
Sorry for all the ramblings. Thanks for reading it all the way through. The Lyrics are listed below. 🙂
I messed up tonight, I lost another fight
I still mess up but I’ll just start again
I keep falling down, I keep on hitting the ground
I always get up now to see what’s next
Birds don’t just fly, they fall down and get up
Nobody learns without getting it wrong
I won’t give up, no I won’t give in
‘Til I reach the end and then I’ll start again
No I won’t leave, I wanna try everything
I wanna try even though I could fail
I won’t give up, no I won’t give in
‘Til I reach the end and then I’ll start again
No, I won’t leave, I wanna try everything
I wanna try even though I could fail
Look how far you’ve come, you filled your heart with love
Baby you’ve done enough, take a deep breath
Don’t beat yourself up, don’t need to run so fast
Sometimes we come last, but we did our best
I’ll keep on making those new mistakes
I’ll keep on making them every day
Those new mistakes
