Today we had a blackout at work and all my coworkers, managers and I are sitting in the front of the store just hanging out until the power comes back. While all of them are casually talking and cracking jokes, one of my managers tries to get my attention and asks, “why are you so quiet over there?” I just smiled and kept it to myself…
The truth is I woke up at around 4 AM super anxious. Just two days ago I was telling a close friend of mine about how I’m not worried about the $10,000 deadine today. I don’t know if it’s because I’m a procrastinator or because of how much faith I had that God would provide. There were also 8 other people on my squad who hadn’t reached it and to be honest I had more faith that they would reach it more than I had faith for myself. I’m realizing more and more that this has always been the case in my life. I have always been the kind of person who loves to encourage people and help them and speak life into them, but the words I’ve spoken over their lives, I’ve never really believed the same for me. To be honest, I like being the burden bearer, but hate being the burden. I don’t know if it’s a pride thing or another heart issue, but after talking to my coworker about it she brought up something that stuck with me. “In order to help someone genuninely, you have to have been helped.” It’s like in order to know what someone is going through, you have been in their shoes.
Fundraising for me has been one of the most humbling experiences and I truly believe God is teaching me how to not only to trust Him, but teaching me how to be vulnerable. To learn how to ask for help without feeling bad about it after.
Usually I end each blog with a word of encouragement, but this time I want to do something a little different. Will you help me today by planting a seed towards this journey? I am just $2,342 away from my $10,000 deadline today. I need your help to reach it. I’m asking for just 94 people to give $25, or any dollar amount you can! I also want to thank all of you who have given, whether I know personally or not, I am praying for you and thank God for your support. May He Bless You Abundantly! Love you all so much! 🙂
