Life in Bangkok has moved crazy fast.
You blink and a day has gone by or a week has gone by or a month has
gone by. Its weird to think that its
autumn in the States right now when I am
sitting here in Bangkok, where it is 80-90% humidity and in the 80s-90’s and I
feel like I am sitting in a sauna fully
clothed. I’m going to miss the leaves
turning this fall in the Northeast! But
things in Bangkok have been good, God has given us the 
opportunity to be a part
of what He is doing here in Bangkok through the Well, ministering to girls that
have left the sex-trade and also girls that are still in the sex-trade. There have been times throughout the month,
where I reached my threshold and the end of my rope. Where I didn’t know what else to do, where
else to go, what else to say, etc. and that’s where trust began and God started
to show me tangibly what it means that His grace is sufficient in my weakness
that His strength is made perfect in my weakness. Where I end and where He begins. Have you ever been there? In those moments when you are “ministering”
to someone and seriously don’t know what else to do or say (especially when
there is a major language barrier?) So
you sit or stand there and all you hear is cricket-cricket…? But then the sweetness of when He just takes
over. Man, there have been so many of
those moments. Seriously, when
everything inside me is kicking and screaming and saying I don’t want to…go to
another bar, live in community, etc.
BUT, if You, my God want me to, than I will. Its strange how everything in life for me
lately has boiled down to simple acts of trust.
That acts of obedience are really acts of trust, really saying God I
believe…I believe that You are who You say you are…I believe You when You say
You are just…I beleve that You are above all things…I believe You when You when
You say do not worry…I believe You when You say nothing can separate us from
Your love, not even angels or demons. 
One afternoon last week, one of the girls that I have met and become friends
with at the bar, Dina, called and asked me to come over and hang out with her
at the bar while she was opening up.
After a very late night, very little sleep, feeling physically,
emotionally, spiritually exhausted, all I was craving was REST in every sense
of the word. But here was a door that
God was opening, and He was asking me to be obedient. So I said yes, pretty reluctantly. And as I got off the train and was walking to
the bar, I was like God, I’m spent, I’m tired, I’m weak, and I don’t have
anything to say to this girl, anything to give to her, so please take
over. Make the promise real right now
that You strength is made perfect in my weakness. And then I walked in. Into obedience, into that promise. And there He met us. He let me be a part of what He is doing in
Dina’s life. Dina and I sat and chatted
for several hours and God just gave me the things to say to her, to ask
her. And God said…I never expected
you to be able to do anything on your own Jane.
SIGH, He is awesome in our frailties.
