Last month, I attempted a detox, meaning no white starches or soda or junk food, only fiber, fruits, fruit juices and water, etc. And basically after 1 hour gave up. But I’m just thinking about that concept. Why we need to detox sometimes physically, spiritually, emotionally. My month in Bangkok was hard. It was painful, difficult, awkward at times. And it wasn’t until the bus ride to Cambodia that I had the time and space to process. I know that the Lord is going to use what we did in Thailand, beyond a shadow of a doubt. But I realized how I had gone into this battle mode. Of going going going, doing doing doing, etc. And the stuff that we saw and the things that these girls that we talked to and became friends with, well it was hard. There were no easy answers. So, emotionally I kind of detached and started to go back to what was comfortable. My oh so easy and comfortable self-reliance, self-dependence, scrappy ways. And it was belittling to God. It was me saying to the Creator of the universe, the Lord of heaven’s armies, no You can’t handle that. So here I am saying Lord, I have one life to live, make it count, make it yours. Bring me out of the boat, have me stand on the water with no way to turn back, no where to turn back, and only You to walk towards.
