Many of you know that I got injured at training camp during the endurance hike. What you guys don’t know is that being confined to using crutches has dependent on my team has been a MASSIVE struggle for me. I was always taught never to show weakness and being confined to crutches has been an open admission of being weak at least according to my screwed up way of thinking. Having to literally have someone carry my plate of food and cup for meals has been so challenging but my team and squadmates have graciously stepped up and have poured out so much love to me in the last week. I realized that me being on crutches is actually a blessing since it has caused me to actually talk to people and voice when I’m hurting, even though I often still forget. I have learned that I’m not a burden no matter how many times I’ve heard that in the past. That I am worthy. That I am loved. And that I have a purpose. Over the last few days God has shown me the deepness of vulnerability, and even though I don’t like it, I’m grateful for the lessons and the relationships being formed. We may only be 4 days into Nicaragua, but I’ve already learned so much. I’m extremely grateful and cannot wait to see what other lessons He has in store for me.
