So I’ve been trying to avoid this blog as long as possible. But I think it is time to write it.
Anyway, so roadtripping to camp was nice. Relaxing. Boring. Interesting. (do those two work together?) Anyway, with going to camp, I also had 3 days to think about going to camp. 3 days to stress, fret, worry, contemplate and anything else you can think of. Saturday driving to camp was probably the worst. I was literally sick to my stomach. It was terrible. And I had this stress bump above my eye and it made it difficult to even open my eye. I was physically decaying because of worry! Haha
Anyway, arriving at camp was tough. Thrown into this group of people. Outgoing. Friendly. Loud. I was completely out of my comfort zone. You don’t even know. I just wanted to crawl back into my tent, cry, and click my heels together 3x and wish myself home.
It took me so long to come out of my shell. But day after day, I was making friends and becoming more comfortable with the World Race and my squad that I would be spending 11 months around the world with.
The beginning of camp was focused on ourselves, and letting go of things holding us back. There was worship, and speakers who gave their testimony. It was about freedom from the world and the things in our lives. Not to be proud or stuck up, but it honestly did not have that large of an impact on me. Yeah God worked in my heart during this time but instead of releasing certain things and getting out of a cage, he more confirmed for me that I had already done this and was free in him and was ready for the world race. I had already given up past hurts as to where I know who I am now in Christ.
Next we moved to community time which was more difficult for me. I am not a community person. I am so introverted in big groups it’s not even funny. But this wasn’t so bad. It was good to get to know people and their stories. Finally we got our teams. At first I was overwhelmed. I couldn’t speak. All I could do was cry. It was real. The world race was happening.
- These 5 individuals are who I would be traveling the world with.
- These 5 individuals are who I am to be open and personal with.
- These 5 individuals are who are going to be my family and best friends for the next 11 months.
That is a lot to ask for a person like me! But they are all amazing and I am so blessed to be on a team with them. I know they were each placed on my team for a reason and each one has a special place in my life and heart to help me grow during the race.
Training camp was like nothing I had ever experienced before. Everything during camp was preparing us for the world race. And halfway through the week when I heard others complaining and commenting with uncertainties, I sat and thought to myself…
“I can totally do this for not only 11 months, but more like the for rest of my life.”
And it was then that I realized that I am called to the World Race and it is through God’s strength and my passion for serving and glorifying Him that I will make it through these next 11 months and then the rest of my life as a missionary.
