What if I went home right now??
This question was brought up during family time tonight. We are upon the halfway point in the race. 5.5 months completed already on the Race and still 5.5 months to go. So we are now halfway done. Wow this time came on us quickly. Knowing that half is gone and half is to come is causing a lot of reflection. So… If I went home right now would I feel happy with what has happened so far on the Race or would I go home the same Jamie that left only filled with regrets of what could have happened while on the Race.
What can I do now in order to make the next 5.5 months more meaningful for me than the first 5.5 months and to continue the work the Lord has began in me?
In ways I can already see some of the changes that have taken place in my life. Community is a big one, from being an only child and living at home with my mom to living with a least 5 other people and being around them 24/7. Another one is trust. Being able to trust my ‘family’ with who I truly am without the worry of rejection or judgment. And there is confidence, in who I am and in who God is calling me to be and knowing that all things work together for those who love Him.
Though I have learned a lot already, I know that there is still so much more to go. This is something I received in a prophecy the other night from a teammate:
“Do not worry or devote your time to thinking about what will happen when you get home. God has so much more for you still here. Stay in the now. As much as you have grown, you will be a completely different person in 6 months.”
Yeah I have grown, yeah I have learned a lot about myself and yeah I have seen changes, but there are still five and a half months left to go and there is no better place to continue to learn about myself, desire change and to work through the tough stuff than right where I am.
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the in that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.” Hebrews 12:1
It is kind of ironic how the scripture talks about ‘running with perseverance the RACE marked out for us’ and in my current season of life the World Race is the primary focus. But it is a good reminder to keep pushing through knowing that God has this race marked out for me and this is where He has called me to be even though I might not always see it or believe it.
(Family Force 6 overlooking Cape Town, South Africa)
