I’m an only child. Been an only child my whole life. Coming on The World Race I’ve gained 3 sisters and 2 brothers. All older. This is not an easy feat for me. I will be honest. When I was younger I always wanted ‘A’ sibling. (Though I didn’t always imagine 5). But now I have some. And it’s not always working out as I planned.
We spend a lot of time together. More time in the jungle in Ecuador than we have in the desert of Peru. But it is still a lot of time. More time than I am used to.
I’m an introvert. Been an introvert my whole life. I am used to time alone whenever I want. I am used to doing what I want to do. But here, everything is different. True alone time is hard to come by. There is always someone in our room. Or in my quiet time space. And being a woman, I can’t even go for a stroll along the beach by myself. I can never be alone.
Needing alone time + gaining 5 siblings = not gonna happen
So something I have been learning this trip, this past month especially is how to rely on my team and use them for processing moments. Usually I am good processing happenings in my life alone. It is what I am used to. But here that is not gonna cut it. Here I am learning how to trust 5 others completely. How to talk to 5 others. How to share my life with 5 others. It can be and sometimes is a lot, but I know once successful, it will be so worth it.
Lately, I have been attempting to do it all on my own. Even without the help of God. I have been trying to live life, process events, move forward. All on my own strength, which we all know doesn’t work. Tonight talking to a team member, I realized how much I am holding back. I need to use the resources (such as my newly acquired siblings, and more free time for God) more. They are all here for me. We are on a team for a reason. And as long as I am holding back, I am not helping them or myself in anyway.
Team FIREPROOF sitting at this gigantic Catholic Church which
overlooks the town of Huanchacho, Peru and the ocean.
