Month five did not look at all how I thought it would. I went in with a different perception of what ministry would actually be. They say that you shouldn’t do that. Ya know, have expectations and stuff! Well, I totally did and I was not disappointed by what happened! You’re going to be lead teaching a class, Jamie! I said ok, but inside I was like, what? I worked in a preschool for three years and I was excited to find out I would be teaching a preschool class. I love preschoolers because you can act like you’re their age and they just don’t care. I soon realized this would be a great month. There were days when I struggled with the living conditions such as bucket showers, tents, a large number of mosquitos and some other bug that I can’t name!
Joy would return to my heart every time I would step into that school and teach a lesson to those children, sing a song with them or play a game. This is the Heart that I want Jesus! I want a pure faith and an unconditional Joy that is not dependent on circumstances. There is a strength in His Joy that is greater than what’s around me and its ability to tell me how to feel, what to think or how to live. I want these circumstances to point me to the one that overcame the world. I started praying for More of His joy two months ago and it came through these children.
My eyes have been on my circumstances for a very long time. Most of you don’t know my testimony which I will share one day. When our lives are filled with pain and hurt, we immediately start looking for the negativity in circumstances. After all, if that’s what you know, you start living like everyday is going to give you what you’ve had. Jesus has been teaching me a new way! He is been changing my perspective. Just because my past has been painful that doesn’t mean that my future needs to be too. Jesus is our freedom and our healer. He gives us hope and a future. He is the anchor for our souls. Even in the middle of difficult circumstances we can hold on to Jesus! He is our unshaken foundation! 🙂
