I don´t know what to say. It seems like for one of the very times in my life, I am speechless. I don´t know where I am at and or where I am going. Sure, I am in Peru near one of the greatest ruins in the world, nestled among the gorgeous green mountains, and I know that I am going to Buenas Aires in a few days, but I mean in the larger scope of things. I am amazed at how God has worked in Peru but I still have yet to find my role, my place among these people I serve alongside. Sure, I have been obedient and that counts for so much within the Christian walk, but I want something more, something that has my name written all over it. Something that breathes life into my lungs, that sparks me to act, to live. Peru has been difficult for me and maybe that is how it was always supposed to be. It is hard to leave all the work behind and begin anew each month. It is hard to share with Luis and the boys that I played soccer with, then have to place them gently in God´s hands and move on.
Maybe that is the point. Maybe this trip is to show me that life can not just be wandering around. Not that that is bad, but it is not for me. I love to travel and always will, but I also know in my heart that I desire the home- the place where life coincides for me. I need something stable to return to, to find rest after I have given everything. Some might envy me for being able to travel the world doing all these things, and I am so grateful, but do not discount all that Christ has done for you. Life is not about and has never been about having the most toys, or cars or the most money. Life has always been about relationships, about people and about God. Jesus has been so good to me and the those that I meet. There is nothing like seeing someone coming to know the Lord for the first time, as they really get it and live like it. May our lives reflect Jesus alone. May I remain strong in doing what is right. May the Lord keep all those people in Tumpa and Mancos that desired Him, may He seal them in His Spirit as it talks about in Ephesians 1. I think this post has been a lot of rambling, a lot of unsures and that is ok. I don´t have all the answers and that means that God is still guiding me and directing me. So praise to the Father!
