Hey Family!
Have you ever had an experience, or maybe a chain of them, that have left you thinking, “I think I understand Jesus better now, even if ever so slightly.”
I have, recently I have been having A LOT of them. I wrote a few weeks ago about a vision I had with Jesus called ‘Oceans’. Since then, I have had a few more, but today instead of writing them all down now, I want to tell you about what those experiences led to.
In each vision, I do something fun with Jesus, He loves spending time with me, and he teaches me something specific, while the real teaching is me watching and learning what his personality is like.
One of these cool traits is how vividly I think he sees the world. The way I learn about him is experiencing a little bit of what I believe he experiences. I keep praying for more depth in spiritual gifts, and they keep coming in ways that I never would of imagined. Before this month, I was kind of scared to ask for more of that stuff, because I was so comfortable in enjoying God, turns out he makes my enjoyment multiply more and more as I dive in.
Here is a snippet from my journal telling of my vivid experience.
August 29, 2013
Something odd has been happening to me lately. Yesterday on the bus I felt some sort of life that I’ve never felt before, such vivid life. Everything I felt, everything I saw was with such vivacity. Everything was so beautiful. Everything was so colorful.
(I want you to know that I don’t usually describe life like this, so I’m not exaggerating when I say it was extravagant.) In these visions Jesus’ life always seems so extravagant.
I imagine it was like being on a drug. The best way I can describe it is by comparing it to the movie Limitless where Bradley Cooper takes a pill, then starts to see and think of things very clearly, so vividly.
It was like this for about an hour. I just sat on the bus, resting in Gods presence. I looked out the window and just admired. Creation was AMAZING. I had never seen nature quite that way. Trees, leaves, mountains, clouds, and the sky were beyond description. Everything popped out more than usual.
I had a stupid-big grin on my face the whole time. I had never felt connected to God in this way before.
It didn’t stop there, I seemed so focused in on everything, one thing at a time, fully taking in its beauty and wonder. I looked at all of my squad mates on the bus, feeling overwhelmed with love and admiration for all of them. I wanted to spend hours with each one, just being with them excited me. I almost cried at the thought of how much Jesus actually loves each one. It shook me that I could possibly love them similarly to how Jesus does.
I thought to myself, “is this how Jesus sees people? How he feels about people? Is this how he sees his creation? Even if its just a little like Jesus, it is unreal, sooo sweet!” I wanted more. So I prayed to feel and see life, people and God how Jesus does.
I want constant vivacity. : )
Praise God for the life around you,
Jake
