Today marks the last day of being in NYC before officially moving out and heading to Georgia for our 10-day training camp. I have so much emotions going through me that I’m still processing everything.
Let me tell you how i really feel!
Letting Go of My New York City Life:
Wow! I still can’t believe my time here in NY is coming to an end… it’s been an incredible, life-changing 3 years. This has been my home and I’ve fallen in love with it. The culture, the hustle and bustle, the food, the subways, the people, and everything in it. By far, the city where I have experienced most growth in. God has taught me so much here in NY and I feel like living here in fact prepared and trained me for this race. What a bittersweet ending, but I know He already had this pre-planned and preparing me for something bigger.
Letting Go of All My Material Things:
Imagine giving up your whole closet and wardrobe, your whole apartment, your furniture, and everything in it. How do you think you would feel? Yes, uneasy and uncomfortable. I even teared up sorting my items out because God is teaching me to LITERALLY let go of all my stuff. I had a big yard sale, sold my expensive purses, and even donated 8 bags full of clothes and shoes to Salvation Army. Yes, what a challenge it was but yes it’s also necessary.
Letting Go of My Church, Job, Family, and Friends:
So many amazing memories with wonderful people yet the time to say goodbye came sooner than I expected… To all my church family, my relatives, my coworkers, my friends – I just wanna say thank you for making such a big impact on my life, thank you for making NY memorable, and thank you for teaching me and growing with me. You all have played a vital part in my journey and life wouldn’t have been the same without you! You will all be missed, but I will surely be back to visit!
Letting Go of My Heart:
I think this is by far the hardest part of letting go. God is teaching me to let go of what my flesh wants and He’s teaching me to give up all of my feelings so He can fully work in me. God is telling me that He not only wants part of me, but ALL of me. He’s teaching me how to remain faithful and obedient to Him and He’s challenging me to put Him first above everything else.
Wow, it’s been a great run NYC! What a season! What a chapter and a great milestone! What a journey it has been and it’s only the beginning! Although it hurts and it’s painful to let EVERYTHING go and I mean EVERYTHING, I know it will all be worth it. I know He knows what’s best for me, He has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. All of the sacrifices will be worth it and I can’t wait to see what else He has in store!
I’m now ready God! Send me off! I give you all of me! Use me! I’m ready for you Training Camp!! Let’s go!!
