My motto for this year has quickly become “walk it out!” Alumni World Racer, Ryan Hughes shared with us at launch some powerful stuff. The thing that stuck with me the most was WALK IT OUT. I don’t have to see the end result of these next eleven months, I just have to walk it out. It’s kinda obvious but something that is truly hard to do when you think about all the mystery awaiting you month after month on the race. But the great truth is I know God works everything out for my good and my job is to simply walk it out. To take one step at a time, one day at a time.
India has been tough, but I think I’m finally settling in a bit. I didn’t really have culture shock from the things that I saw but maybe from the way we were living. It’s so far removed from anything considered normal back home it’s not an easy transition. It’s hard to eat a huge plate of rice when you are already stuffed or feeling sick from the last plate of rice. It’s hard to pray for people when it’s blazing hot and you just want to sit down. It’s hard to consider and prefer your teammates when you are already so uncomfortable. It’s hard to do all these things because we are selfish people. My flesh cries out for the familiar, for the easy, but it doesn’t have the option to be comfortable.
I can’t complain because being uncomfortable is what I said I wanted for this year- to have nothing hindering me from fully relying on the Lord. I guess I didn’t expect that to happen during the first month, or ever really, but the world race surely provides an atmosphere where relying on God and living by faith is absolutely necessary. I have to cry out to God in the morning and ask him for help. I thank God every night for getting me through the day. It doesn’t sound like the most positive of outlooks, but it’s real and it’s good to go through a process of brokenness.
His Word is so real and speaks to me in my moment of weakness. Every verse brings me comfort that I serve a God who is faithful, who is strong, who deeply loves me and cares for me daily. I’ve greatly struggled being thankful for the condition that I am in, for the ministry we are doing, and for the place we are at; but I just remind myself to walk it out. I’m grateful God has chosen me to walk in this journey and that He has gone before me in all things.
