It’s no secret that I don’t like change. The last few weeks have been challenging in ways that I never imagined. And it’s getting more difficult as the Race is just days away from ending.
Logically after almost a year away from my family and friends you’d think I would jump at the chance to see them. You would think I would be ecstatic to get home. I am, but at the same time I am not.
As I stated, I don’t like change. Even if that change means me going home to a new job and seeing people I haven’t seen in a long while. No, it’s not seeing them that I mind; it’s the “goodbyes” and “see you laters”. I’ve spent a year saying goodbye to places, beautiful people and so much more. The hardest goodbye is to my friends that have become my family of the past 11 months.
Before this year I had never lived with people in community 24/7, but I know it will be hard to walk away from these people that have changed my life in so many ways. It will be difficult not having them so close and not having them in the capacity that they have been in my life this past year.
I have always disliked goodbyes. I feel as though life is full of them and it saddens me. Yet the words of Jesus ring so true for me now and always. He said He wouldn’t leave me or forsake me. He’s in essence telling me that I will never have to say goodbye to Him. That’s reassuring to my heart in the tough few days that are ahead.
