I’m so nervous.
It hasn’t hit me ‘till recently that I’m actually doing this.
I’m actually going through with this.
I'm going on the World Race.
This is it!
I went to Disney with some close friends of mine. We spent the whole day running around, laughing at everything, screaming our heads off on all of the rides, and did all the things a kid could do at the happiest place on Earth. But as we got on the last ride, the Astro Orbiter, as my best friend and I sat together and fastened our seatbelts, as we lifted our hands and screamed and laughed, it hit me hard; this time next year I'll be across the world…
Within a few months, I'll be leaving soon. Every time I’m with friends or with family or even at work, I think to myself “In a few months, I’ll be gone.” Parties, weddings, funerals, concerts, hanging out with friends, driving my own car, sleeping in my own bed, home-cooked meals, all of this will be gone with a few months! And God has been preparing my heart in very spiritual depths a well. From emotions, ideologies, and unclosed wounds in my life, the Spirit has brought a great awakening to my soul on this great crusade that I am about to endeavor. It’s a surreal, gut-wrenching feeling, much like the feeling you get right before the big drop on a roller coaster, or the feeling you get when that special somebody comes into the room. It’s a nervous, yet joyful sensation. I’ve never been out of the country before (I wouldn’t consider going to Puerto Rico out of the country.) I’ve never been away from home no longer than a month at a time. And all those incidents were merely for vacation. But this is different. This is the World Race. This is God’s calling, my purpose and reason for existence in the 21st-22nd year of life. This isn’t something I’ve taken lightly. This is life changing, not only for the hundreds, thousands of people I will have the great privilege of ministering to and loving on, but this will change my life forever.
And it’s scary. I mean, who wouldn’t be scared of this? If you’re not scared about what God has called you to do, then you haven’t realized the gravity of what God is asking from you and Who is asking you do to this. Are you scared and humbled with the call God has for you for your life? This is God we are talking about. The Creator of the universe, the reason for our existence and He has called us to do His will. This is the greatest task of our lives and we ought to live in such awareness of Who has called us to this task and the significance of this task. And it’s not about how extraordinary the particular task is. Every day is another day to live for God, doing ordinary things.
Right now as I type this, I’m sitting behind a desk with a tie on at the office. But that doesn’t mean I can’t be used by God. Whether you’re behind a desk or a cash register or a car steering wheel or a class desk, you can be used by God wherever, whenever, however, for whatever He needs you to do. It’s not about your capabilities, but your availability to Him. He will give you all that you need to fulfill His purposes for your life. The only thing you have to do is receive. You see, it's not me failing in things that I'm worried about. It's me succeeding in things that have nothing to do with the kingdom of God.
As Paul Washer says,
“The 'much' you have done; how much of it is eternal?”
This missions trip isn’t because I want to say that I went and traveled the world. This missions trip isn’t so that I can escape from ordinary life. This missions trip isn’t for some selfish ambition or even for the change that it will bring me (although I know that will happen.) If God doesn’t reveal to me anything, or changes me at all, it wouldn’t matter. The sole purpose for this missions trip is to fulfill my purpose for God. In its simplest form, this missions trip, and my life’s purpose is this:
“The end of the matter; all has been heard.
Fear God and keep His commandments,
for this is the whole duty of man.”
-Ecclesiastes 12:13
The World Race:
His command, my obedience.
I have decided to follow Jesus.
No turning back.
I humbly invite you to be a part of bringing tangible expressions of God's love and change throughout the world. Will you help me in raising $15,000 so that I may be able to use my hands and heart to help bring change to the world. I know God will provide for me the support I need, and I ask that you consider being part of that support. Please consider helping me. Thank you and God bless!
