“‘For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways My ways’, declares the Lord.
‘For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are My ways higher than your ways
and My thoughts than your thoughts.’”
-Isaiah 55:8-9
Try this tonight: go outside and look at the stars. Look at the moon and the clouds and the planes and all that is held up in the night sky. Now try and grab something. Try and reach for one of the hanging stars or snatch a cloud as it dances in the atmosphere. After about 5 minutes of looking like an idiot to the people around you, you’ll notice that these things are way too high to reach. And yet this is the same comparison God uses in this text. “For as the heaves are higher than the earth…” God’s way of working things out is beyond your theological analysis and imagination. I mean think about it. We as humans have reached only a small sliver of space. Some of us have been on planes, there have been others who’ve traveled to space, and we got some guys on the moon. But think about how vast and huge the universe is. Just here in our own solar system, the Sun is roughly 93 million miles from the Earth. That means that if you were to go to school this Monday, walk around the track at the football field 372,000,000 times, you would have walked about how far the Sun is. You see, God just compared how big the universe is to the fact that our limited, finite ideas of how to live are nothing compared to His infinite, eternal, incomprehensible, unimaginable, great ways and thoughts. We have absolutely no idea how much greater is God’s ways and thoughts are. We can’t even fathom how He thinks, how He sees, and He knows all things. And deep inside, this jostles our heart a bit. We always think we got it going. But yet our ways are puny compared to God, and for most of the time this scares us.
It’s kind of scary to think about how big God is. I’ve gotten a new, deeper revelation of how scary this really is. It’s scary because if I’m not putting my full trust in God, where am I going with my life? He knows more then I will ever know. And if I even take a sip of my own ideologies, how lost would I be to not trust in this God who knows all. And how could I even question His intentions and His ways? I mean, He has made the thing we call “life.” He made this keyboard that I’m typing on. He’s the reason that right now, before I’m about to mention it, you’re breathing without even thinking about it. He sustains and holds everything we know in existence and even everything we haven’t even begun to fathom. Who else could I trust if it’s not Him? Myself? You? Who else is there? No one else is there besides God. God is beyond our comprehension. God is bigger then the biggest we can even imagine. And there’s no one else we can trust in besides Him. But that means getting uncomfortable and more then likely smashing our own agendas of our life.
There’s been a lot that has been happening to me in my personal life. Relationships breaking, new ones creating, financial ups and downs, emotional upheavals, smiles, laughter, mourning, pain; I don’t know if it’s just the stereotypical lifestyle of a 20something, but there’s been a lot happening in my life and because of it, I’ve gotten a greater sense of deepening my dependency on God. Romans 12:2 talks about renewing your mind to discern what God’s will is, and in this new season I’ve been asking that the Spirit would just eliminate my preconceived theological ideologies and convictions and perceptions and just wash me clean of any human thought and give me a mind of Christ to discern the things He wants from and for me. There’s this gut-wrenching draw within me that I need to desperately realize that God is so much bigger then I’ve given Him credit for, and I need to dive deeper into the bottomless ocean of His ways.
So with that being said, after must fasting, prayer, meditation on Scripture, and wisdom from my missions coordinator, I will not going on the World Race, at least not in July. As much as has been a completely different plan then what I had planned, I’m not going. Instead I’ll be going on the September Route of the World Race. There are some different countries that I’ll be ministering to that I honestly admit I don’t have a heart for and am praying that God would break my heart for what breaks His in these countries, and there are a variety of emotions that I’m graciously drowning in. This completely changes a variety of plans that I had previously made (moving out, ministry engagements, job promotions, etc.) But even with the vast echo of voices talking to me and giving their opinions, I’m just trusting in God. He’s all I need, and quite frankly, all I have and trust. God’s ways are bigger then mine and I have to trust in Him. He’s gotten me this far, and He will certainly continue to get me through everything, even my finite plans.
So as I stand outside at night and reach for the unreachable stars above, I embrace in my heart that I have no freaking idea what I am doing. But God does, and it is in Him who I trust.
“Trust in the Lordwith all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make straight your paths.”
-Proverbs 3:5-6
The new countries I will be ministering to are: Guatemala, El Salvador, Honduras, Philippines, Australia, Malaysia, Thailand, Cambodia, Kenya, Uganda, and Rwanda. Please pray for me as I continue to discern the will of God for my life, as I will continue to pray for you as you discern the will of God for your life. For more information on the new countries I will be ministering to, please feel free to check out my newly designed home page. Thank you so much for your continued support as I follow God on this amazing journey. Grace to you and peace be with you.
For the glory of our infinite, eternal, amazing God in the heavens.
Through the empowerment and enabling of the Holy Spirit.
In Christ alone.
Amen.
