It’s been a couple weeks since my last update, so I figured I’d better post something. Instead of giving a ministry update, because nothing has changed at ministry, I decided to just tell y’all how I’m feeling. Honestly, I’m exhausted. It’s been a long eight and a half months, and things are beginning to wind down. This time next week, I will be completely finished with ministry. That’s crazy. Three weeks from now, I’ll be back in Lubbock. Wow. I’m so close to the end. With the end so near, I’ve been taking some time to reflect on what’s happened on the race and what is going to happen when o get home. My emotions are a mix of excitement, sadness, dread, pure joy, and a desire for things to both change and stay the same. God has called me back to Lubbock for a while, so I’m excited to get back and work in His will. A deeply rooted love has grown inside my soul for my friends here. I am so sad to be twenty hours away from them instead of twenty seconds. God has given me a very loose plan of attack for when I get back home. And by loose plan, I mean I have no idea what I’m doing, so I’m dreading the day I have to figure that out. Currently, I am super joyful. God has blessed me with an amazing home, a couple amazing friends that I would dare to call sisters at this point, and a deep inner peace that can only come from God. I want things to change because I have a burning desire to be back home wrong my friends, serving the Lord, and dancing again. I don’t want things to change because I’m living with my best friend right now, and I know that distance will change that relationship. All in all, I’m doing wonderfully and terribly at the same time. I’ll leave y’all with one last thing. I recently tried my hand at blackout poetry. (Calm down Mrs. Sherrod, I know, I know, that poetry unit was actually kinda cool.) I have only written one and I think God really spoke to me through it.
(If you think this is cool, go check out Kendall Covington’s blog. She has done some blackout poetry in the past.)
P.S. Inbetween me writing this and posting this, I had a wonderful Devo time. God has reassured me that I don’t need to worry about my future, and that I need to enjoy the life I’m living right now. I have so much love in my heart for those around me, and those who I am going to see so very soon.
