God has been recently talking LOUD into my life.
I can always remember hearing God’s voice in my life. It’s always been a recognizable voice I heard. I’d like to think I became aware of it around 12, but I had heard it before then. Coming to the race I felt God started talking to me the most He’s ever had and started to ask me to step into obedience, to stay in His will.
It’s always been easy when God gave me a word for someone. Not that He hasn’t asked me to say HARD things, but it just seem like it was easier to do. When God started to talk to me about my future it sounded scary. It was intimidating to hear that the Creator of the universe had some great things in store for me. He knows I’m not worthy, right? He knows I can’t possibly believe I deserve the desires of my heart. I finally became so overwhelmed by the word that I prayed for it to stop. I asked Him if He could just silence Himself for a bit. I asked if He could just give me a confirmation that I was still hearing Him. That I wasn’t going crazy, that I wasn’t creating these things, that I was still on track…Could He just talk to me about someone else? “God, please just use me with someone else! I can’t bear to hear you talk about goodness in my life” was my prayer. Also, I wanted confirmation that the word I would be giving was accurate. I wanted to know that it was something needed or expected. I went to bed that night knowing God heard me.
The next morning, I heard God asked me to call one of my cousins and his wife. In my mind I thought “yes!” They know how God talks to me and I could tell them all about it. I talked with them up until my phone died. I charged my phone and jumped in the shower. I heard God again. God reminded me that I was supposed to give my cousin a word a while back. “I forgot about that!! Wow, Jesus, that was a quick answered prayer!” I jumped out of the shower and called my cousin back. His wife answered. I told her I was showering when God reminded me that I had to give my cousin a word. She said “that’s weird, he was showering around the same time you must have jumped in. I will call you when he gets out”. Her sentence stood out to me as funny but I brushed it off. I gave her the option of just telling him herself. She said she could not do that. I agreed.
I called back after breakfast and before I could start my sentence my cousin stopped me. I think all I got out was “God gave me a word for you…” He interrupted and started freaking out. I was sure this was confirmation! I wanted to make sure so I asked him to tell me what was going on. He said when he was in the shower he started praying to God. It clicked! God gave me the word at the same time he was asking for the word. I asked him to explain everything he talked about with God. He said he knows how God talks to me. I had given him a word a few years back but it hadn’t come to fruition. He asked God if He could touch base with him on it. My cousin asked God if he could use me once again. He said as soon as I called back he wanted to bring it up but didn’t know how. I started crying.
God’s word was about his promise. God gave me the phrase, “little steps, Big God”. All He wanted from him was that he would step into his promise with little steps of faith and He would take care of the BIG things. The things that seem to be daunting. The hard things. The things that seem impossible. He would open the doors and create the platform he needed. All he had to do was take little steps of faith and God would take care of the rest. He gave me three verses for him and we finished our conversation. Wow, God! I couldn’t believe it. He answered me in less than 24 hours. I started to realize that the word wasn’t only for my cousin. I too have to take little steps of faith and let my God do BIG things in my life. Why is it easier to believe that God has good things in store for others but not us? I refused to stay in this mindset and decided to recite the verses below:
“Then I thought, “To this I will appeal: the years when the Most High stretched out his right hand. I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will consider all your works and meditate on all your mighty deeds.” Psalm 77:10-12
“He does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.” Psalm 103:10
“But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing the Lord’s praise, for he has been good to me.” Psalm 13:5-6
“Truly I understand that God shows no partiality, but in every nation anyone who fears him and does what is right is acceptable to him.” Acts 10:34-35
God keeps His promises. He favors and loves all of us the same. There isn’t anything you can do to keep Him from wanting to do good in your life. No matter what you think you deserve. Your promises are coming! Take little steps and believe in your BIG God.
