I can’t go on the World Race. That’s all I kept telling myself. I’m not capable and I’m not ready. I probably misheard the voice when God ask me to apply.
I went to Training Camp with this mentality and was sure I was going to fail my friends and family once they found out I wasn’t qualified. Training Camp was our final interview. I believed that was going to be the end of this journey.
I recently hurt my foot and wasn’t able to walk from the pain. I let it get to me. I was sure I was going to fail the hiking test.
I arrived to Training Camp fearful. Other people that were there were supposed to be there. The way they worshipped, the way they carried themselves and the way they were “stronger” than myself was all proof of it. Little did I know they were dealing with some of the same thoughts.
The first three days were tough. I kept thinking I was going to be sent home at any moment. I failed my first attempt at the hike by 2 minutes. I found myself crying at worship during the session after the hike. Someone came up to me and told me God let them know I was loved. Until this day I’m not sure who prayed for me but shout out to them for stepping out. They helped me know the TRUTH there is in Christ’s love. That moment reminded me that the hike didn’t quantify God’s love for me.
After, our session that night, a friend of mine came up to me. He asked how was the hike. I told him I had to re-do it the next day. He looked at me in the face and said “if you find your strength in Jesus you will be able to make it tomorrow”. I clinged on to his words & hiked the next morning.
My hike was at 6:30 a.m. I ran it with my mobilizer on one side and one of my squad mates on the other. While I went through the same trail as I did the previous day I noticed I had my entire squad at different corners cheering me on. When the hike would get tough I would repeat the verse my best friend had text me before I went on Training Camp. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”(Phil.3:14). I was able to finish & beat my previous time by 4 minutes.
That day I learned several things: my strength comes from Christ, I wont be able to do the World Race by myself and my worth doesn’t come on my capabilities. I’ve been chosen by God for this race but I learned that I will need him at all times during my race. I have a community of people that want to see me grow and want me to complete this journey. I will no longer live with the mentality of “I can’t” because I CAN do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me. Not only did Jesus heal my heart during Training Camp but my foot was healed too.
I am excited to enter this journey with Him knowing He goes before me, beside me and is for me. Thank you to all my friends that prayed with me through my fears. Thank you Jesus for letting me find Freedom in your truth.
“all your promises are Yes & AMEN”
