As I sit here pondering about my life, I wonder what I have gotten myself into.
I am completely exhausted, wishing that I had more time to sleep and to just take a shower.
I have reached a point where a nap is ten times more important than taking a shower.
I never thought I would reach that point.
For those of you that don’t know, I am on staff with AIM this summer.
I am serving in Mississippi as a project facilitator.
My job is to help ensure that the youth group projects are run smoothly.
It is a struggle at times, but I can see how God is using this time in Mississippi to prepare me for the world race.
Last week was our first week here and I doubted why I was here.
I had signed up for the World Race after I had made the commitment to come to Mississippi.
I started to understand why God put me in Mississippi when I had to run the project this week.
God is trying to help me understand how much I can truly handle before I start to struggle both emotionally and spiritually.
I keep asking myself questions and wonder ‘How much sleep can I run on?’,
‘How many days can I go without a shower?’, and
‘How important are the things in your life?’
I reached pure and utter exhaustion this week.
I was not only tired; I was to the point that I was about falling asleep just standing up.
I had run myself to a point that I could not function as a normal human being.
I had to take time out of ministry just to sleep.
I feel that God is showing me my limitations and what I need to do in order to be able to best serve people.
The second thing that God has shown me is that I need to get used to being around people all the time.
I have not been around people 24-7 for two years.
I did not realize how hard it could be.
I am amazed at what God is showing me and teaching me.
I know that being in Mississippi will truly prepare my heart, mind, body, and soul to go on the World Race.
