If you knew Gods will for your life, would you do it? What if He asked you to do the one thing you said you’d never do? What if His will for your life was going through suffering? If He let you in and told you, “this is what I want for your life,” would you go?
Sometimes I want to know what God’s plans for me looks like. What His will is for my life, but do I really want to know?
I do, but at the same time I don’t. I am afraid of what He might ask me to do. He can easily lay out my life before me and tell me, “This is what I have created you to do. Now go do it. You will suffer in this way and that way, but this is what I have for you. It might not sound like something I would allow you to go through, but remember it will be worth it in the end.”
We are sheep sent amongst wolves. Persecution and suffering will come. Will you run from it or embrace the suffering and hold tighter to the hand of our Father? I want to say I would hold on tight, but I don’t know. Sometimes we don’t know until we are there, but Jesus did say, that we would suffer if we followed Him.
Papa can play out our life to us and there will be things that we will want to change. Things we would say, “Not me. Someone else can do that.” I’ve been guilty of choosing the easy way out. When it got rough it was easy to run back to comfort.
But this is not why I was born. I wasn’t brought into this world to run away, but trust Jesus. Trust Jesus in the midst of the storm. To trust him in the midst of all the uncomfortable moments.
Persecution. Jesus was persecuted for me. He suffered for me. He died for me. He could have told God, “No,” and gone on his way living the life he wanted, but instead he said, “No I love Jackie so much that the suffering I go through is worth it, because she is worth it.”
I want to be like Jesus. I want to embrace the will of God for my life, but do I really want to know what God’s will for my life is? Well… I do and I don’t. I do, because I like to know. I don’t, because I might say a premature, “No, I am not ready.”
He gives us what we can handle. Two years ago God could have told me, “You are going to do the World Race,” and I would have said, “No.” Two years ago I wasn’t willing. Everyday that goes by is a new surprise and even though I am not fully equipped for this journey, I am willing to endure it, because I have the Spirit of God guiding me.
We don’t need to know God’s will for our life. Yes, it’s nice to know what is next, but I also love opening presents and everyday with Him is a surprise, a new gift I didn’t expect.
I want to say I trust God completely, but if I am honest sometimes I get like Peter and doubt. I look at my surroundings and I start drowning.
I want to take each day as it comes and be alert for what he has prepared for that day.
I want to live day by day and stop worrying about what God’s will for me is. I want to enjoy the moment and embrace the will He had for today.
