So as a lot of blogs will say I have been in Antigua, Guatemala for about a month now. This is my new home, this is where I feel comfortable, this is where I have learned so much already on my great journey but this is not the end, it’s only the beginning. If you looked at my relationship with God a month ago to now you would see a pretty radical difference. Instead of always going off of my trust in God I have learned I can do that and go to the scriptures for answers. I have learned the spiritual gift of discernment. If you asked me what discernment meant a month ago I would say something like “choosing good from bad” well yes in a way, but I learned that discernment is a lot more than just that. It’s listening deep down in your soul, meditating on what God is telling you is best. I’m living in complete community with other Jesus freaks 24/7 for the first time in my life. Though sometimes it get’s on my nerves sharing milk or planning the next meal for 20 people, I need this. It’s helping me grow patience and helping me with taking care of people’s needs and wants.
*cue Lord of the rings type music in the background*
GUYS, THIS IS ONLY THE FIRST MONTH. I learned laziness is not a option, I learned I can take rest but if I’m lazy that’s not going to fly with God or my squad mates. I learned that if you buy pants from a street vender they’re going to rip on the first day you wear them. 8 MONTHS OF GROWING AND SHARING TO GO. I took this first month of the trip to learn what it’s like to pursue God daily, I stumbled some days, some days I forgot, some days I wasn’t feeling it. I was ignorant but God kept showing his grace and love for me and he kept pursuing me even if my selfish heart wasn’t feeling it. After this first month I realized that I want Him, I want Him so bad, I want Him more than anything. This 1st month was made for me to stumble, to be challenged, and to try again. Now I’m not saying that won’t happen again for the next 8 months but this time God is the number one priority in my heart and my head. I am ready to lead, I am more discerned, I am more confident in the word that is the breath of the Father. So here I go, going full force into the world with the armor of God, with no regrets. I will run and not be weary, I will walk and not faint. I will renew my strength in God. Being in constant prayer I will mount up on wings like eagles. There is evil here and I am ready to breath out the Holy Spirit and let it cover those who I interact with. I do this for the glory of God, take shelter in God, my brothers and sisters. No matter what you are going through, no matter what sin you face, no matter how far you think you have grown away from God, God is bigger than that. He is for you, He loves you, and He will never leave you. If you do not know what a true relationship with Jesus Christ is like, I encourage you to seek out someone who seems like they do. Don’t be afraid, no matter what you face, a true Christian who has experienced grace can and will show you what it’s like to walk with Christ. It may be messy, He never promised we would have a squeaky clean life, but it will be worth it. Watch out for false people, these will be the ones who say only works will get you to heaven. They will persecute you for what you have done in your past, they will put on a fake face for Sunday, but then the rest of the week they will not represent Jesus.
Go in His grace and if you have any questions about what this means please feel free to message me and I will be happy to chat with you.
