Let’s Be Honest

I could write surface level things about Haiti.
I could write about the views or how cute the kids are.
I could mention only the good things from the month.

But that’s just not the honest truth about this month.

I don’t really enjoy the ministry we are doing daily.
I’m having a hard time loving the culture and the people.
Even the kids are driving me absolutely insane.
I dread going to ministry in the morning.
I count down the hours until we leave.
It’s ridiculous and frustrating and totally unlike me in every way.
But it’s the truth, it’s what I’m feeling, and I don’t want to put on a facade for you all.
I’m taking you all on this journey with me.

The good part about this month is that God has really been shaping me as a person. He’s been showing me my true identity in him. He’s spoken into my future, which was the whole reason I applied for the race. He’s helped me break chains from the past and WALK AWAY from them. He’s introduced me to real authentic community with the girls and the guys on the squad. I’ve challenged myself and pushed myself out of my comfort zone numerous times. I’m growing up with the way I handle things. And I’m taking my relationship with God way more seriously than before.

So is Haiti everything I wished it would be and more?
Negative Ghost-Rider.
But it’s been one of the most growth filled months of my entire life and I’m incredibly thankful for that.