I recently sat down with my mom and watched “Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm” a 1938 Shirley Temple movie. Shirley Temple plays a spunky 10 year old radio star. Multiple times in the movie she puts her hands on her hips and gleefully says “I’m very self-reliant!” Until yesterday, this is how I viewed myself. I have always thought of myself as a humble person, I think of others first, and Im never the one to brag about myself. Yet as I am preparing myself for the Race Im realizing there is so much I am stubbornly trying to do on my own. I have to raise $16,000 and I thought I would be able to do it so easily. I would pick up a few more hours here and there, and I would make the majority of the money by myself. I had no doubt that I could do most of it without relying on others for support. Last night I got taught Lesson One. I was let go from my job where I was getting the majority of my hours and there went MY plan. The last 20hrs of my life have been hard. I spent most of the night praying, and reading the Bible and realizing that I can not do this on my own.
“i need to be very GOD-reliant.”
Im now in the process of sending applications to new jobs. I have begun writing my support letter (which I put off because I was very self-reliant). Please pray that I fully rely on the One who wants the most for me. I know God is my provider, and now I want to live like it.
Grace and Peace, Jace.
