Rest, not a word I frequently respond to…
We always want to be on the go feeling like we’re accomplishing something, and in the process often don’t know when or how to rest.
Training Camp was good and tough,
It was good because I was able to meet some really awesome people and at times be open and honest. It was tough because for the first time in 3 years I don’t have direct duties/ responsibility going into the race, I’m just one of the guys, and at times I felt alone.
It was in the tough times that God ministered to me one on one..
(1) To my not having responsibility – He said will you serve me? with no title, no responsibilities?
(2) To my feeling alone – He said who are you trying to please?
My response was:
(1) Yes Lord, its not my plan it hurts but I will serve you, Isaiah 55:8-9
(2) You God, later at camp after discussing this someone shared Gal 1:10
At the end of camp I was broken, my plans in pieces, and yet I realized there is still a lot of pride, control issues and that I need to focus on people and relationships more than accomplishing tasks.
I need to let go and trust that God has everything, my life is not my own, my plans are not my own…
I believe the most important lesson God is teaching me is that my value does not come from any title or role I play in ministry, It is purely the fact I have received Jesus as my savior and am God’s child.
(John 1:12-13)
I am not loved more If am raised up or humbled I am simply the Lords and greatly valued.
After camp God revealed to me through sermons, and people the word “Rest”
God is still using me but it’s different, there’s less worry, less control, I don’t have to try to be part of every outreach I find out about, I can spend time with family and stay current. (I still have to be faithful with what the Lord has given me to do and fundraising yet I don’t have to stress over it, if it’s God’s work He will bring it to pass)
Below is a picture of the ministry team I’m on the neat thing is God picked everything, Honestly, I didn’t have any dream team going into camp or any nightmare team, that much I let go of and figured God knows better.
I am looking forward to getting to know each person in the team and finally focus on people not tasks, to value them for who God has made them to be and not what we accomplish as a team.
(Top Left To Right) | Rafi, Sabrina, Brianna, Liz, Isaiah, (Bottom) Laura, Lesa
The song below has been ministering to me – Its about drawing near to the Lord
I believe we sang this in Training camp
