I knew going into this was about to be the experience of a lifetime but I didn’t realize the experience was going to start months and months before launch. From having to come up with whacky ideas to raise money (if you have any great ones PLEASE let me know) to learning more about my awesome squad mates daily and experiencing so much of God and His good works. Truly blessed. Life is trying and stuff happens but deciding to lay my burdens down at his feet and putting my joy in Him and not of this world has been so incredible. I am already so hyped to continue with His plans for me.
One of my favorite worship songs “Reckless Love” has been constantly playing through my head these past few weeks. In particular the line “There’s no shadow You won’t light up, mountain You won’t climb up coming after me” has really stood out. ISN’T THAT AWESOME TO THINK ABOUT. Crazy. Joy just rushes over me thinking about it. No matter what we do He still wants us with all of Himself. We cannot earn it and it isn’t some point system it is SO unconditional and we can have no comparison or even place a scale on His love and yearning for us because how can we as humans come close to determining that?! His love is so much better than our idea and understanding of love and that is so so rad. Literally nothing we do can stop him from reaching us even if we think differently. Wether it’s through a sunny day after a stretch of gloomy ones or through that person you had been thinking about reaching out to you or you having to deal with holiday hardships resulting in humility and a better understanding of grace, it is Him.
I would really appreciate prayers for motivation, to exercise boldness, conquer fear of imperfection and to focus on the present. With this thrilling trip coming up in about 9-10 months it is hard to remember to live and appreciate the now occasionally. Along with that comes with a lack of motivation to do the things I need to do leading up to it. Then with that comes self doubt and fear of imperfection when it comes to blog posts or coming up with new fundraising ideas. And lastly boldness, something I always am fighting with. I don’t want to live in fear or full of insecurities for the life He has planned for me has none of that and only He can give me the strength and courage to overcome that. Lord I pray I become okay with things not going the way I meticulously plan them, I know your plan for me is perfect let me become fully open to that.
Currently I am selling some awesome t-shirts in my favorite color yellow that Fund The Nations so graciously helped me design and produce. A wonderfully comfortable Comfort Colors t-shirt, easy to throw on, spreading His word and awareness of my blog! They are $20 or $25 if you need them shipped to you. Comment down below if you are interested in one of these gems!
