There’s something so beautiful about going out to serve the Lord. Here on mission we are pulled away from our “normal everyday life” and placed into the unknown. Everything is different, constantly changing, and forcing us to depend on the Lord in so many ways. And in that space, somehow what has been weighing on us that we didn’t even fully know was there comes out of the hiding places we have placed them in. I think we just become so busy that we don’t take the time to check in with ourselves in our day to day life. So, when I am placed into these spaces where I have to actually ask myself the hard questions, everything I didn’t even know was there just comes out and I am crying and am wondering where to go from here.
When I turned 25 a week and a half ago it hit me that I am half way through my 20’s already. I know that’s still super young but I always thought this part of my life was far away and I had all the time in the world. But now it’s here and I’m having to make real decisions that can change the course of my life. I always put off this conversation with God because I am kind of scared of how fast time is going and how I feel like I’m not as far in life as the people around me. Don’t get me wrong. I have zero regrets about all the moving and doing the Race twice now. But it has left me without a place where I have been able to grow deep roots and really “start a life” whatever that is supposed to look like. I’ve found myself with bits of my heart and story all over the world but I’ve never settled in an area that I can call my home base. And since God loves moving me everywhere, I am needing to learn what it means to grow roots in things that aren’t permanent but hold onto Him who is permanent.
Psalm 24:2 spoke to me before this Race and then again now when I needed it most (that’s how cool God’s Word is). David is talking about how God made the earth and he says, “for He has founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the rivers.” I read that and thought I just love how the earth was founded and established on water. It’s always moving and changing yet it can establish earth and be under and within it all. And just like how we as humans are always moving and changing yet God can still build a strong foundation of life in us.
It brings me a lot of hope because yes God will have us growing and moving our whole lives, but that can’t keep God from establishing a solid foundation in us and through us. If he can do it to the entire planet He can do it with our tiny humanness.
With all that being said, I was able to have an incredible time with God today. I got to dream about the future with Him and talk about what brings me life in my spirit. I am so excited about the future now and I’m excited to see what all He has planned for it! I wrote down the dreams and things I want to do for when I get back, but for now, I am excited that I can hand those dreams over to God to hold while I stay present with this squad here in Ecuador.
Until next time,
Isabel
