Today during church service my pastor hit home with a sermon from the book of Galatians. The end of chapter 5 and beginning of chapter 6 reads,
25 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26 Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other. 1 Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted. 2 Carry each others burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. 3 If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. 4 Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, 5 for each one should carry his own load.
For years I have struggled to not compare myself to others: my sister, my friends, my old classmates. In the process of trying to live up to other people's lives I continued to take my own steps at a distance from the Spirit searching for admiration. This all came to a climax the day before my 10 year high school reunion two weeks ago. I wanted to be able to enter the banquet center with a handsome husband beside me, with a successful career to talk about and pictures of my adorable kids running around the yard of my cozy country home.
That night my feelings ranged from frustration to embarrassment to hopelessness. My only thought was: at age 28 I had no husband, no kids, no career and no clue what my future would look like. I had gained nothing in the past ten years! Then God quieted my spirit and so gently stated You gained ME. I couldn't believe how blinded I was by worldly desires that I didn't praise God for His love, His grace and His wonderful plan for my future, beginning with The World Race.
Focusing on The World Race has helped me stay in step with the Spirit this summer. So often I forget that I am a servant. I was set free to serve others. I was set free to be an example of God's love and kindness. An example I have not been portraying. Just two days ago I was upset by the poor example some staff members of a summer program were setting for the kids participating in our healthy cooking classes by eating McDonalds, Little Caesars and Ramen Noodles in front of them. I walked out of the building asking God "How can I possibly teach these kids the importance of eating healthy when most of the adults are not setting a positive example." God immediately responded "How can I teach non-believers the depth of my love when you aren't sharing my love with them?"
WOW. God is so graciously honest with me. I am so glad He continues to restore me gently. I am so glad I am listening to His voice, following His direction and obeying His calling.
Are you glad for God's restoration, love and direction? Are your actions reflecting your gladness?
