I’ve struggled to hear from the Lord. Always have. My human nature comes out and will often whisper doubts into my mind. You’ve probably thought the same thing at some point in your faith walk. “Why can’t I just hear the audible voice of God like I do with my friends” We always hear what it’s like to have a relationship with the Lord and it’s about talking back and forth. The Lord talks to us and we listen just as much as we talk to Him and He listens. I’ve heard it my whole life. And yet I still had that doubt in my mind. Well why haven’t I heard the audible voice of God? Why is it always this feeling in my heart? Why is it just this small voice in my head that MIGHT be from God?
Well for one it’s because God talks to everyone in different ways. That’s apparent, and has become even more apparent on the race. For me it’s often a still small voice, either in my head or a pulling on my heart. I’ve learned to embrace it the past few months, but let me tell you it wasn’t easy. Sometimes I would get so frustrated because our God is SO BIG. I MEAN HE’S STINKING HUGE. Why does he talk to me in such a small way? Of course this is ignorant. It’s not in a small way, it’s simply the way he speaks to me. But regardless it would get frustrating to me. Sometimes I would doubt it was even the Lord and rather struggled with the battle of if it was my own thought or the Lords.
Then I had a vision.
Yeah.
A vision.
You always hear these crazy stories of people getting visions from the Lord or prophetic dreams and you think a couple different things. At least it’s what I always think. Part of me thinks it’s so cool that the Lord spoke to them so clearly, part of me thinks they’re a bit crazy, and the other part of me is jealous I have never experienced anything like this.
Then I experienced it, and even then I doubted it was from the Lord. Until I received the verification my human mind needed.
The Lord has been challenging me in many areas on the race. I’ve definitely been challenged in ways I wouldn’t have expected.
During my quiet time one day I asked the Lord a difficult question. I had been challenged by leadership to ask the Lord if I needed forgiveness for something. This is something I had never considered needing forgiveness from, but since I have been learning to go to the Lord for things it has almost become instinct to immediately go to the Lord. I asked the Lord the strange and difficult question. Lord do I need forgiveness? Immediately I was in an airplane and flying over this square of land. On this land was a building that I couldn’t quite make out, all I knew is that it was not a house. The plot of land had trees on the perimeter and in the middle of the square was the word NO in the grass. The image stopped suddenly and immediately I was back in my room in Romania. I sort of put it in the back of my mind and didn’t think too much of this, only because I assumed it was just my own head creating it. It was so random to see that and I’d never had a vision so it must have just been fabricated in my own mind because it’s what I wanted to see. I continued with asking the Lord and spent my quiet time in scripture trying to find an answer to my question.
It was later that day that we met our ministry hosts and got to see the church we would be serving at for month 2. I went through the day not thinking anything of it, but I realized the entire placed seemed eerily familiar. It wasn’t until we were walking home that I realized the church plot was set up very similar to the image I had seen earlier that day. I dismissed the thought, because immediately I said there weren’t any trees around the church. Of course, my curiosity had risen and I immediately googled the church when I had wifi. I found pictures of the church and saw the trees that were surrounding the square the church was on. The yard was exactly the same, the only difference was there was a playset rather than the word NO. I even looked at the church from google maps and from above IT WAS THE SAME EXACT PLACE.
I had a vision and saw a place I had never seen before. I saw a place that I went to later in the day and didn’t even realize it until after I left that place.
God knows his children well. He knew that in order for me to truly believe it was from the Lord I would need something as crazy as having a vision of a place I was about to go to only hours later.
Up until that day I had never had a vision. It was one of the most clear ways I have had the Lord answer a question I had.
Literally the night before I had been praying about the doubts I experience when it comes to hearing from the Lord, and the very next day God shows up and gives me a VISION TO ANSWER MY PRAYER. I’m still excited when I talk about it because I know just as clear as ever that the Lord speaks to us as Christians. Sometimes we simply need to ask the Lord and expect a response. In this instance he responded and it strengthened my faith in regards to how I hear from the Lord. He can speak to me however he sees fit; whether that’s a still small voice, a booming cry in my ear, or a vision of a previously unseen church.
You may be a bit confused. He just posted about month 1, then something that happened in Romania… Isn’t he in Greece and in month 3 of the race? Well yeah… you have a right to be confused. Let me explain. Up to this point I’ve been terrible about posting blogs. I’m doing my best to catch up to present day. So I have a small list of blogs I want to post and then I will be caught up to what is happening currently! That’s why my blogs (and coming blogs) are from month 1 and month 2. I don’t want there to be a time gap in my posts so I’m trying to write about the highlights up to this point. The Lord has been doing crazy things here in Greece. I can’t wait to share all about those things!
Also if you’ve supported me financially up to this point I just want to thank you. You have allowed me to be on this trip and your support means the world to me. I am currently 77% funded and that’s INSANE. I really can’t express how thankful I am for all the support I have received. If you haven’t donated yet, every amount counts. My final deadline is quickly approaching and I still need $4,004 to stay on the field. I know the Lord has provided up to this point and he will continue to do so. So if you have not yet, consider donating. You all are incredible. God Bless.
