It's official. I don't think I can do the World Race. I am absolutely incompetent, selfish, luxury-dependent, addicted to artificial anything, sinful, and just not ready. How can God tell me to do something that is completely opposite of who I am? How can anybody be ready for this? The great divide between the first world to the third world is enough to make anyone hesitant to leave the extravagance of such comfort. Oh and don't even get me started on the food! I am perfectly fine with eating my luscious, delicious, and fattening everyday food. On the World Race? Probably curry, curry, curry, curry, curry, rice, then maybe some fish. Leaving family and friends? NO! They have always been there for me so I'm not going to just ditch them. These "World Racers" are probably not even going to be in my life after 11 months so what's the point of investing in their lives? I can't go a day without playing my Candy Crush. When I can't get passed a level on my five lives I get so pissed that I just become stone cold with anger. But I want to keep playing it! How can I play it when I'm off in the middle of nowhere? Plus! Who's going to take care of my Pokémon while I'm gone? I just beat the Elite Four on Emerald and now there's the Battle Frontier to look forward to! While we're on the subject I don't want to have to live my life in a backpack. That seems so difficult to pack everything that I need and walk around for 11 months with it. Oh it's to spread the gospel? Well I can do that from home. Spending sixteen grand doesn't seem quite worth it either. I can do three terms at a bible school with that amount of money. Why not just use that money to further my education? So no, I don't think I should continue with the World Race anymore.
PESSIMISM ^
That's not who I am. I don't look at situations with doubt coursing through my mind 24/7 to find the alternate and safer route. I look at situations with faith that God can make good out of absolutely everything. That's how I look at the World Race. Sure, I think to myself that I'm not ready for this journey. But God has called me to this journey so I'm going to follow with open arms and a mind that expects nothing but Him. When I got called to this I didn't approach Him with doubtful thoughts. The one question that was on the borderline of doubt was why? Then I felt as though He answered back through a movie that is my all time favorite: We Bought A Zoo. He said, "Why not?"
He knows the huge imperfections and the flaws in me and yet he has called me to take on a huge responsibility of spreading the gospel to 11 countries in 11 months. Who does that? Who would put someone in a huge job when they have faults that could ruin everything? Our loving Father does. I feel so loved that I have a faithful God that knows that I won't mess anything up. I am going to be sacrificing my luxurious country to reach people who have never felt love. I am going to be telling people everything I know about Jesus! I am going to be following God in an amazing journey to reach the lost! I am not going to let anything hinder me when I have an almighty God on my side.
Thank you to everyone who has helped with this journey! Whether it be in prayers, money, encouragement, I truly appreciate it. Please consider supporting me financially. I have another $15,000 to raise and I can't do it by myself. Contact me in ways you can support me. Otherwise just click the Support Me! tab in the upper-left hand corner of this page. God bless.
Your Brother in Christ,
Hunter Young
