Hey everyone! I’m writing this post in Bangkok, Thailand. It’s honestly quite crazy thinking about these last two weeks and everything the Lord has done. Sooo many conversations with locals, travelers, and my team. I’m loving it of course, as y’all know how much I love good convo :). The last two weeks have truly been a laying down of myself. It’s so exciting and yet something radical when I truly take some time to think about what all that entails and then choose to act on it. It’s a daily choice. I think before I had seen surrendering every part of my life as something desirable, but actually achievable, maybe a little different story. I mean we are told to do this over and over, but in my flesh, is it possible for me to give every bit of my life to the Lord. I am beginning to realize it is possible. It takes a willing heart and an attentive spirit to dwell on it through out the day and to be willing to go wherever and whenever the Spirit moves.
“He must increase, but I must decrease” – John 3:30
Oh how much I love this! What a joy it is to walk in this. I long for the day where I can walk in this moment by moment, not controlled by my emotions or the circumstances around me, but when I am controlled every single moment by the “peace of Christ” (Colossians 3:15) that is in me. I literally can’t wait for the day when my whole life, every thought, every longing, every desire, every expression, every word, everything, is ruled and reigned by the peace of Christ. When the peace of Christ has dominion over every part of my heart. I think life would look radically different if in every moment, we let the peace of Christ rule our hearts, rather than our fleshly desires. Nothing would throw us off course. That’s an extremely weighty statement, but I believe it is fully true if we let Colossians 3:15 wash over us. There would still be grief and pain, but a deep rooted peace accompanying you throughout every moment of your day, now that’s an absolutely thrilling and exciting life in my mind. It’s funny how at times I can so easily get thrown off course just by the heat of the day or the distractions around me. I mean, can’t I give Satan a little better fight than that? 🙂 But, I am learning the joy of inviting Christ into every part of my day. With that, I am learning to seek the Lord with every part of my heart. Psalm 119:2 says,
“Blessed are those who keep his testimonies, who seek Him with their whole heart.”
I have begun to realize how vast and complex my mind and heart is. It’s not something that can be easily explained. That is amazing! Something I will never understand, but the joy is that I get to seek the Lord in ways that I don’t fully understand, in ways I can’t fully utter, in ways I can’t fully comprehend, and still, He can reveal Himself and speak to me in those moments. It’s not a matter of perfection, it is a matter of seeking. God calls us to seek. He desires our hearts. Psalm 96:1 says, “Sing to the Lord a new song.” Yes, that means a new song! Create your own, get lost in worship, experience Him through words, music, silence, art, errands, with every part of your heart. I believe there are facets of my heart that I don’t even realize are there. What a joy, to walk in and experience Him in the unknown and to know Him more in completely new ways. Much love!
