Before I get into my blog, just want to know that I’m here in Swaziland and I don’t have Malaria. My room for these couple of weeks is my tent. Our whole squad of 50 is staying together on the “compound” also known as the Anchor Center. Which ironic because I bought a ring with an anchor on it during our layover in Qatar (richest country in the world) which was crazy amazing. So before I get into my story, I need to give ya’ll some background on the situation. Picture this: A dry area with little to no water, sand and dirt everywhere, and my tent set up in a chicken coop.
As the sun set, the wind picked up where we were staying. The stars were lighting up the night but it was hard to see as the dirt and sand drifted through the wind into our eyes. I went to go check for something in my tent and there was a layer of dirt covering everything. I decided to leave it the way it was and came up with the great idea of sleeping in my hammock with some of the guys. Little did I know I was getting myself into a very interesting night. So I gathered my hammock sleeping bag and pillow and ventured out into the storm. With my headlamp lighting my path, I set everything up and burrowed myself inside. Immediately I started feeling stronger gusts of wind. The flaps of my hammock making loud sounds, making it impossible to settle down. It was freezing cold, and I was restless. That’s when it hit me. So vividly in my mind came the fact that it wasn’t about me. It was never about me. God humbled me in this moment, when I had no comfort, that’s when I understood. I had been struggling with humility before this. While leading worship, I wanted so badly for the focus to be on God and God only. I struggle, however, because I cared so much on how I sounded and if I was playing the right song and none of that mattered. It’s all about God. The sole reason I am here right now in Swaziland, Africa is because God is alive and that brings hope to the hopeless. The people here are so broken and are in desperate need of God. My God that I have a personal relationship with and who has been with me through it all. This life that I was given is not about me. I know that my purpose, the one thing I want for the rest of my life is for God’s love to radiate through me. I pray everyday that I can remove myself completely and let God work through me. This has made me so excited because now I look at my day differently. This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it.
On a side note, I have raised about 2/3 of the funds needed to continue my trip. I would appreciate it so much if you guys could help me out. It doesn’t have to be much, but anything would help the cause. I love ya’ll so much and I will try to reach out to you whenever I can. I am doing very well and I’ll be posting more soon. Peace out y’all.
