Have been thinking a lot lately about, what am I doing here? Basicly my perspective, leadership sees areas of my life I need to work on. Honestly I’m quite familar with these areas, they are things I’ve been trying to change for years. I recognize certain behaviors that are not necesarily condusive to my walk with Christ. Some of these being: a very brash approach when first meeting people, cynicism, or sometimes just being cold. I’ve tried changing these in the past with little or temporary success at best. It takes me back to a lesson that the Lord taught me when He delivered me from drugs and alcohol. That would be, I can try all I want in my own strength, but until I cry from the heart for God to change me, my efforts will be to no avail. When I believe, concede and look to Him, only then He moves. He does it this way so He gets the glory, because if I’m honest I can never say to another, “that it was I that changed” rather I can say, “God changed me!” He is faithful to finish the good work that He started in me… “being confident of this, that he who
began a
good
work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus” Phil 1:6
The last five days here, at the Gateway, have been a real struggle. Going to Oaxaca and Mexico City was a refreshing breath of air. I very much enjoyed ministering and getting away for a few days. Since being back, I’ve really been wrestling, but I know it’s important that I stay submissive to both God and the authorities He’s placed over me. I just hope He completes this good work in me quickly!
Thank you for all your comments that you post! They’re often the only interaction I have with the outside world.
