Have  been back at the Gateway for two weeks been working alot pouring concrete with the construction crew that works here full time they are locals who have worked here for ten years running have also been working in the field w/ some of the groups that come in   last night was tough my back locked up on me when this happens i can barely move interesting that it would happen when it did I had just spent a couple hours with Thomi running around Brownsville  talking about the things he sees I need to work on  which are some ofthe things I have recently been blogging about.   But have not taken any action t owards changing(sometimes our behaviors become such an intrinsic part of our personas we have to ask the lord to help change us ) .  I believe this is what the bible would call true repentance.Lord I cant do this on my own I dont  know how  please do this work in me annd glorify yourself. Needless to say the  Lord had my attention and we spent some quality time together. Feel like the lord was leading me last night.  Id rather the Lord get my attention even if it hurts than let me continue  down . I want the spirit of life to flow through me   and  I dont just want this to be a good blog.