Ifind myself back in Matamoros Mexico.In process of Following The LoRD where I arrived 2 days ago I had previously been in the mountains of Oaxaca serving at El Refugio. A residential drug alcohol treatment center in the mountains of Mexico.I was thier fasting praying seeking the LORD when I went into a static siezure a static siezure is when your nerveousystem gets overloaded with neurotransmissions and your system siezes you remain in this state(IMMENSELY PAINFUL)until your system gives way and you die.I had been dealing with some personal demons namely fear.The LORD Had shown me in dramatic fashion my fear of LOVE(HIM) I was on day11 fasting and praying trying to submit to what I believe he was leading me to do.When leadership blew the rams horn for breakfast.When I didnt come they came looking for me they found me just inside the doorof my Tpee siezing.They got me up and took me to the E.R. in Miahuatlan the next closest town where they started to try todiagnose my condition.I spent the day there where they were trying toadminister enough pain medication to cut down my headache.That night they took me to Oaxaca City to a larger hospital to get some better treatment.There the U.S. Counsellette was called and were able to get in touch with my father who was able to tell them my medical condition and they were able in turn to start to treat me for my condition.The U.S. Counsellette had realised the severity of my case and wanted me out of Mexico my father had made arrangements to have me medevacuated back to the U.S. when I got up and walked out. The doctors were amazed as they said I shouldnt have been able to stand having ingested that much pain medication.
I traveled back to the mountain with my friends.I need to take a moment and thank the LORD first and foremost and all his servants who prayed.I stayed in the mountains for a couple of days resting and recovereing praying and felt led to come up to the border.So I hopped on a bus and I must explain I was still quite a mess and headed towardMatamoros.I arrived 12 hours later at what I thought to be my proper destination only to realize after being dropped off on the side of the highway that it was not. So then Im on the side of the highway with 2 large suitcases and a military backpack at 2;30a.m. tired as @*&%.Thinking Im in close proximity to the Gateway.So for the next few hours I drag around my luggage until the sun comes upso I decide To hide my luggage in a ditch and continue onto my destination.Next I get picked up by the police who take me miles further from my goal running my name and checking out my story but arent able to converse functionaly so arent able to assist me. So then its continue on toward the goal. Im praying talking to GOD when I notice a shift in my hearts attitude. Basically I humbled myself heard the LORD speak.Sub mit to authority.About the same time this x-convict GEorge stops.He speaks decent english.So were able to communicate .He works with a international missions organisation and was able to assist me in finding the Gateway.Since arriving here Ive been in contact with my family letting them know Im allright.I also talked with Seth Hes the C.E.O.of A.I.M.He asked that I put out A Prayer requisition.Istruggle with pride but theres no room forpride in the heart of aevangelist.I sTRuggle with fear butthere are 365 places in the word that say fear not the only room for fear in the heart of a minister is the fear of the LORD. Im currently reding the spiritual disciplines where the author speaks of CHRISTS constant communion with the FATHER and his submissive heart and our call to follow.I was talking to a another brother yesterday about tuning in to the frequency of the LORD.Iwant to come to that place where I only do what I see the father doing. Is this not the christian heart. I want to submit my will to his I have 2 prayers that Im always cycling through that the LORd woulcleanse my heart.And he would not let pride get afoothold. A friend at my homechurch felt they got a word for me during thier prayer time.They felt the LORD say pray for deep healing.So please if the LORD puts me on your heart ask him to lead you and pray the prayer of faith.Ive had a lot of problems in my life with my heavenly father and my earthly fatherbelieving that they loved me.Ive met a lovely young lady from Switzerland who Im madly in love with who Im trying to trust.I dont want to hurt her I dont want to get hurt Im trying to seek the LORD and make sure hes in this.Im trying not to sabotage myself.Im just humbly asking forearnest prayer from others who know the only hopefor a fruitfullife is that of love.I believe the siezures were just a manifestation,a symptom of the war in my spirit to let LOVE(GOD) into places that full of fear,darkness, strongholds,The earnest effectual prayer of a rightheous man availeth much.Th e Lord showed me my next step.I have to do my part if he leads you please do yours.Thank You God Bless.
SHALOM
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P.S.Ialso have a praise one of my best friends at home.Recently started going to my home church.The LORD used me in his life to minister when he was suicidal and everyone else turned away I give the glory to JESUS and his transformative power as by nature Im a selfish jerk who usually wrapped upin the labrynthf his own pain .PRAISE JESUS
I BELIEVE THE LORD WILL FINISH THE GOOD WORK HE HAS STARTED IN ALL OF HIS CHILDREN
