We got up at 6:30 yesterday morning, took a boat accross the lake, aquired a guide at the National Park and began to ascend San Pedro, which is 3,000 plus meters high. It made me realize just how old I am. I loved it but wanted to quit. Individuals on the team took turns leading, we had to rest periodically, it took us 4 hours to ascend and 2 hours to come back down. After this and the previous day I was smitten, between this and wrestling with my own junk. Communication amongst my team has been lacking. I am not a huge verbal communicator but I do communicate in other ways, the problem being perceptions. There in lying the problem, perceptions. God gave us a voice for a purpose, I do not always use mine as I should. I tend to let things build up and then explode like a volcano. I did that a little bit today, boom. Talked to leadership and together we decided that I will step into a different role for a time. That being ministering along side leadership while removing the log from my own eye. At the end of this leg of the journey the team and leadership and I will come together again and see where God is leading.
Met two lovely ladies, Cathy and Anna Marie, the three of us will be pressing in on log removal/chasing down the pain I try so hard to run from, pressing into the Lord through fasting and prayer as a unit. Trying to get to the root. Prayer is much needed, I ask that you put my name before the Lord and pray as the Lord leads you.
I have a promise from the Lord that I am standing on, it is this, humble yourself before the Lord and in due time you will be exalted. I pray for strength to return good for evil and leave room for the wrath of God.
